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Monday, February 25, 2008

i'mmovingtoanewhouse!

Ilmaffectional has stepped her foot to here.. See you in the crossroads!!










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Anonymous iman brotoseno said...

ya..susah komen di multiply secara harus punya account multiply dulu..

8:56 PM, February 25, 2008  
Anonymous tya said...

iya.. gampang kali...

2:49 PM, May 21, 2010  

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

DuaPuluhTujuh.

Hmm, cukup lama juga ya saya menganaktirikan blog ini. Kesibukan, kemalasan, hilangnya kepercayadirian dalam menulis dan semangat berbagi cerita membuat saya sengaja menarik diri dari blog ini dalam waktu yang cukup panjang. Postingan saya yang terakhir ternyata sudah berumur 4,5 bulan sekarang-- waktu yang tidak sebentar tapi juga sangat singkat untuk merangkum skenario Tuhan dalam perjalanan waktu yang saya lalui itu.

Satu hal yang menjadi garis bawah tebal berwarna merah yang menjadi pelajaran penting untuk saya selama 4,5 bulan itu adalah, "Tuhan adalah Sutradara Terbaik" dan saya adalah "aktris pemeran utama yang masih harus banyak belajar untuk menjadi bintang di mata-Nya". Tugas yang amat sangat berat untuk saya, karena skenario yang Dia berikan ternyata begitu penuh dengan permainan emosi yang membuat rasio seringkali menolak untuk bekerja, dan karakter yang saya perankan cukup sulit saya mainkan. Belum lagi, skenario yang Dia ciptakan terjadi begitu spontan dan tak terduga, sehingga membuat saya terkejut dan sering panik dalam mengimprovisasi peran. Improvisasi yang saya lakukan seringkali tidak sesuai dengan apa yang Sang Sutradara inginkan; dan sebaliknya, apa yang Sang Sutradara mau terkadang terlalu berat untuk saya mainkan..

Sebagai seorang aktris yang masih merangkak, tentunya saya memiliki banyak idola yang bisa saya jadikan contoh dan panutan dalam berseni hidup. Diantara ratusan idola tersebut, ada 2 orang bintang yang sangat saya agungkan. Drama hidup yang mereka mainkan sangat sempurna serta jujur, dan mereka adalah sumber inspirasi saya dalam memainkan peran saya sebagai seorang Ilma.

Mereka adalah Yahdi Zaim dan Anita Fithriani, ayah dan ibu saya.

Ibu saya diberi kepercayaan oleh Sang Sutradara untuk menjadi seorang ibu untuk 3 orang anak, sekaligus istri untuk seorang kepala keluarga. Selama 27 tahun Ibu berperan hebat dan begitu luar biasa menjadi seorang pendamping hidup bagi ayah saya. Dua puluh tujuh tahun. Waktu yang tidak singkat, bukan? Romantisme hidup yang beliau mainkan tidak dapat terukur oleh apapun. Ibu saya bisa menjadi seorang Juliet sekaligus Erin Brockovich, tapi juga bisa seperti Bridget Jones sekaligus ibu kita Kartini, unik kan? Karakter unik yang beliau perankan membuat Ayah harus pintar-pintar mengimprovisasi perannya sendiri selama 27 tahun menjadi lawan mainnya.
Ibu adalah sosok wanita yang sangat sempurna di mata saya, dan saya yakin juga sangat sempurna di mata Ayah. Tanpa beliau, saya tidak akan pernah tahu bagaimana rasanya menjadi seorang Ilma. Banyak sekali pelajaran hidup yang saya peroleh dari beliau- bagaimana membintangi seri romantis yang bisa tetap survive dalam berbagai episode yang begitu panjang dan dalam durasi yang tidak sebentar. Ayah saya sering sekali mengungkapkan kepada saya betapa besarnya kekaguman beliau terhadap Ibu, betapa beliau sangat bangga memiliki istri seperti Ibu, dan betapa beliau sangat mencintai Ibu saya melebihi apapun. 27 tahun adalah angka yang lebih dari kata dewasa, dan Ibu adalah bintang yang tidak akan pernah redup..

Ayah saya adalah lawan main Ibu yang sangat mengimbangi kekurangan dan kelebihan Ibu. Memang Sang Sutradara benar-benar sutradara terbaik. Dia bisa dengan begitu sempurna memasangkan aktor dan aktris yang bisa saling mengisi dan melengkapi. Skenario yang Dia ciptakan juga begitu indah; 27 tahun penuh episode romantis yang dilengkapi dengan bumbu-bumbu hidup yang membuat kebersamaan mereka sungguh menarik. Ayah saya seorang yang cukup idealis dan sangat berpegang teguh pada prinsipnya. Ibu sering mengeluh tentang kekakuan ayah saya; tapi Ibu juga sangat bisa mencairkan kekakuan Ayah dengan improvisasi peran yang sangat hebat. 27 tahun hidup sebagai kepala keluarga dan imam bagi kami adalah pekerjaan aktor yang tak ternilai. Adalah suatu tugas yang sangat berat, menjadi pemimpin yang bisa membimbing istri dan anak-anak menjadi aktris dan aktor yang kelak mampu mengambil hati Sang Sutradara dan meraih piala penghargaan di akhir drama hidupnya..


Ibu sayang, terimakasih atas 25 tahun yang penuh cinta untuk Ilma; terimakasih untuk kasih sayang, kesabaran dan pengorbanan Ibu yang telah begitu kuat merangkul pundak Ayah selama 27 tahun ini.. Terimakasih untuk tidak berhenti menjadi bintang dalam keluarga kita ini; terimakasih untuk ketulusan berbagi cahaya hati untuk kami semua.. Ibu harus tahu betapa seringnya Ayah meminjam telinga Ilma untuk bilang, "Ayah bangga menjadi suami Ibu." There's a great woman behind a great man, Bu.. Ayah tidak mungkin bisa sehebat ini tanpa Ibu disampingnya..

Ayah sayang, terimakasih atas 25 tahun penuh bimbingan atas nilai-nilai hidup untuk Ilma; terimakasih atas kokohnya punggung keluarga selama 27 tahun ini.. Terimakasih atas perjuangan untuk tetap berdiri tegak agar keluarga ini bisa selalu kuat dalam kebersamaan, terimakasih untuk semua pembelajaran hidup yang selalu Ayah tanamkan kepada kami. Ayah juga harus sadar bahwa dibalik setiap cerita, Ibu selalu bangga setiap kali mengucapkan nama emas Ayah.. Strong man has a strong soul, Yah.. Tetaplah kuat karena selalu akan ada Ibu di samping Ayah...

Kepada Ayah dan Ibu, cahaya hidup Ilma, para motivator Ilma untuk tetap kuat menjadi seorang Ilma;

15 November 2007. Semoga episode kebersamaan yang telah Ayah Ibu rangkum sejak 27 tahun yang lalu dan penuh dengan cerita-cerita indah ini tidak akan pernah berakhir; dan semoga Sang Sutradara Terbaik senantiasa memberikan berkah-Nya kepada kita semua, dan semoga kita menjadi bintang dengan penghargaan tertinggi di hadapan-Nya. Amin.. Selamat Ulang Tahun Pernikahan!!!

Maaf tahun ini Ilma cuman bisa ngasih doa, gak bisa ngasih apa-apa kayak ulang tahun sebelumnya.. Maaf juga minggu ini Ilma gak bisa pulang ke Bandung.. Insya Allah ntar pas Ilma pulang kita makan sushi yuukk!!!!

5 Comments:

Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

mereka pahlawan sesungguhnya ..bukan diponegoro, imam bonjol, patimura..
nulis lagi yaaa

8:59 PM, November 14, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

waah, mengharukannn..

selamat ya buat ayah dan ibunya ilma :)

6:19 PM, November 15, 2007  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

De Il... you must believe me: gw nangis pas baca postingan ini. Pendapat De Il soal parents sama dengan pandangan gw soal itu. Dan terlebih, gw sekarang dah being a mom. Kebetulan pula, saat mbaca posting ini anak gw, Fahd, lagi demam. Jadi sepanjang kerja ini kepikiran terus sama dia. So, I can't bear this feeling. Nangiiiiss.. bener-bener nangis!! Mudah-mudahan ngga ada temen kantor yang liat ya? Kan malu :) Salam untuk ami Zaim dan tante Nita ya, De... I do love them like I love my parents.

12:33 PM, November 21, 2007  
Anonymous gbr said...

he he ternyata ilma anak yg bae yach,terus nulis dong orang ointar itu rang yg banyak baca ama nulis,ma dosa lu itu belum ada apa2 ama dosa gw ma,gw udah prrnah ngelakuin hal yg penuh dosa ,tetap semangat ya ma,hidup ini bagian dari lauh madhfus,so tetap semangat ya,ma lu percaya seseorang bisa membaca takdirnya,ya moga bener tuh mimpi,i am loking for my destyny,

8:40 PM, December 08, 2007  
Anonymous nuniek nur sahaya said...

wah.... postingan yang baguss.. makasii yaaa

11:22 AM, May 18, 2010  

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Monday, July 16, 2007

New ilmaffectional :)


Sekarang saya pakai jilbab. Kaget? Gak percaya? Saya juga gak pernah sekalipun nyangka akan pakai jilbab secepat ini. Gak sama sekali. Padahal saya tahu, di Islam wanita hukumnya wajib menggunakan jilbab- sama wajibnya dengan shalat- tapi tetep aja hati saya gak pernah tergerak. Niat sih ada, tapi sedikit.. Mikirnya entar aja deh kalo udah nikah, itu juga kalo boleh sih entar-entar aja deh kalo udah punya anak dan bodi udah gak menarik lagi. Tapi siapa sangka- saya pun gak percaya- sekarang saya sudah pakai jilbab.

Sebuah keputusan terbesar dalam hidup, memutuskan untuk pakai jilbab di usia saya yang sekarang ini. Sebuah keputusan yang membutuhkan kesiapan mental dan kematangan spiritual, dan sebuah perjuangan besar dalam melawan perang batin. Sumpah, keputusan ini nggak semata-mata saya putuskan dengan mudah. Selama 6 bulan saya mengalami perang batin yang sangat dahsyat, bener gak sih saya akan pakai jilbab? Siap gak sih? Yakin gak sih saya? Seumur hidup saya hidup tanpa jilbab, saya selalu pamer rambut dan sering pakai baju-baju pendek. Yakin gak sih saya siap meninggalkan semua itu? Bener-bener keputusan yang gak mudah bagi saya. SALUT banget deh saya sama wanita-wanita berjilbab yang berani mengambil keputusan menggunakan jilbab sejak lama...

Saya bukan tipe wanita muslim yang baik, sabar, kalem, sholehah dan rela menutup aurat. Saya seorang muslimah, yang insyaallah -maaf, tidak ada maksud untuk riya- berusaha untuk menjalankan semua kewajiban agama, tapi punya prinsip “do not ever judge people by its cover”. Walaupun fisik saya tidak berjilbab, insyaallah saya selalu berusaha menjilbabi hati saya. Toh kita juga tidak bisa menilai apakah wanita berjilbab itu benar-benar berjilbab hatinya. Duh, bisa-bisanya ya saya ngomong gini, padahal udah jelas-jelas jilbab itu wajib…

Sampai akhirnya sebuah momen itu datang. 6 bulan yang lalu, saya merasa dengan akan datangnya momen tersebut, saya diberi tanggung jawab untuk menjadi seorang muslimah yang jauh lebih baik dari sebelumnya. Tentunya, salah satunya adalah dengan melaksanakan kewajiban menggunakan jilbab. Selama 6 bulan hati saya gak tenang, perang batin ini bener-bener membuat saya sering menangis. Seharusnya kalau saya memang beriman, saya tidak boleh ragu akan hal ini. Tapi ternyata saya ragu, artinya saya masih belum beriman. Hhhh..
Sampai 2 minggu menjelang hari-H, perang batin ini semakin dahsyat. Gak bisa dijelasin deh gimana perjuangan saya melawan godaan yang terus datang bertubi-tubi. Emang dasar syaitonirojim yahhh, sadis banget kalo udah ngegodain..

Akhirnya, di suatu tempat yang dikenal sebagai “Rumah Allah”, rasanya semua gejolak batin yang ada seketika lenyap. Air mata saya bener-bener gak bisa berhenti berderai. Sejak itulah saya mencoba untuk kuat dan berserah diri. Dan alhamdulillah, semua doa saya terjawab. Sedikit demi sedikit Allah menunjukkan jalan-Nya, dan semua petunjuk itu membuat saya merenung dan menjadikan itu semua sebagai dasar keputusan saya dalam memakai jilbab. Disana, Allah telah berkali-kali mengingatkan saya dalam beberapa peristiwa, diantaranya yaitu:
1. selama disana saya tidak berhasil mencium Hajar Aswad karena saya pernah menunda shalat Shubuh padahal hanya 5 menit saja
2. waktu bus yang saya tumpangi pecah ban dan hampir oleng di tengah-tengah padang pasir dalam perjalanan menuju “Rumah Allah” yang lain.
It’s a sign. Inti dari semua hikmah dari semua kejadian tersebut adalah:
1. Kalo ibadah jangan ditunda-tunda, kalo nunda-nunda maka Allah juga akan menunda kenikmatan-Nya.
2. Kita gak pernah tau kapan kita akan mati.

Dan sejak itulah saya bertekad untuk pake jilbab. Insyaallah dengan ini, saya bisa menunaikan kewajiban untuk Tuhan saya, membahagiakan orang tua saya dan menyempurnakan ibadah saya sendiri. Mohon doa dan dukungannya yaaaa :)


PS. kalo mo liat foto gw dengan penampilan baru gw, buka fs aja yah :P

11 Comments:

Anonymous filla said...

ilmaa...

subhanallah, fil jadi terharu bacanya, fil aja dah lama pake jilbab, tapi fil masih seringkali melanggar aturan. kadang fil tau sesuatu itu g boleh, tapi dengan alasan-alasan yang seperti membenarkan, tetep jalan teruuuus melanggar aturan.

Selamat ya Ilma... smoga tetep istiqomah..

(two thumb's up deh buat ilma)
saling mendoakan yah...
selamat berjuang... ;)

10:23 AM, July 17, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

duh makin cantik aja.. cantik banget..

11:27 AM, July 17, 2007  
Blogger mitatea said...

assalamu'alaikum wr wb

ilmaku thayank... wah tulisannya membuat haru banget, yang semangat ya ma, mudah2an Allah selalu memberi kekuatan untuk selalu istiqamah dengan jilbabnya, makin cantik deh...

gw salut ama lo ma, semangat ya..

see ya..

10:02 AM, July 18, 2007  
Blogger ::k a v i t a:: said...

Ilma!!! Senangnya melihat Ilma dengan jilbabnya... Alhamdulillah.. sama ah kayak Filla, yuk kita saling mendoakan.. yang pasti aku juga senang ada teman lainku yang merasakan nikmatnya berjilbab...nikmat sekali kan???

Cup cup.. tetap istiqomah dan punya integritas ya... slamat slamat!!

4:58 PM, July 18, 2007  
Blogger Dhani said...

wah ilma! Alhamdulillah! wis om dhani mendukungmu! ALLAHUAKBAR!!!
gw ngiri euy pengen kesana..hiks..gw masih bergelimangan dosa dimana...moga2 ketularan bisa kesana,dan masih bisa naik maskapai indonesia hehehe..

8:52 PM, July 18, 2007  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Welcome to the club, Sis..

2:54 PM, July 27, 2007  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

kamu adalah tetap kamu, ...
selamat atas pilihannya,..

11:13 PM, July 28, 2007  
Blogger anggunpribadi said...

hola ilma!

6:42 AM, October 12, 2007  
Blogger ikram said...

Udah lama tiada tulisan baru?

2:30 AM, November 10, 2007  
Anonymous Gugum said...

"Libas jadiid, wa 'isy hamiid, wa mut syahiid" (berpakaianlah yang baru, hiduplah yang terpuji dan matilah dalam keadaan syahid)

doa rosul untuk orang yang mengenakan pakaian baru

3:26 PM, January 15, 2008  
Anonymous anna said...

Alhamdulillah.....
Saya juga baru pakai jilbab nih, sepulang dari Haji rasanya gak pengen lepas lagi. ALhamdulillah

1:32 PM, March 05, 2010  

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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

The girl & the woman


Look at this naughty and toothless little girl!!

This 5 years old kid used to answer, "I want to be a BOY" everytime people ask her, "What do you want to be in the future". And it was simply because she envy them who pee in standing position and would rather plays wildly in the backyard instead of playing stupid doll with her spoil girl friends. Hahaha..

Her mom says, this girl has a very high self esteem. She is so naughty so that her mom oftenly cries because of her naughtiness. She never afraid of anything-- she goes to preschool playgroup and she become the student leader, she loves school while her friends cry out loud to their momma. She doesn't even shy to play with stranger kids, she goes to a park with full of native kids and she speaks and plays with them with tarzanic language confidently. She always knows what she wants, and she's always trying hard to reach her dreams. She really wants to beat her boy friends in sprint, so she exercised so hard and won the race. She doesn't care with what her friends always say about this and that-- she loves drawing a beautiful princess who plays with a tiger-- she doesn't care eventhough all of her friends in her class prefer to draw a landscape with a shinny sun in the middle of two triangle mountains and a blocking rice fields in front of it. She's also used to says, "Yes, I am READY for that." because she precisely knows that she can do and face everything.

Now, look at this- not toothless anymore but now in brace- woman.

The naughty and toothless little girl above thanked, this woman didn't sexually transform herself to a boy. This woman realize being a woman is such a miracle because she could get pregnant, give a birth, and become a mother. What an amazing essence of life!!!

Her mom says, this woman has a high self esteem but it's lately been reducing so bad. She is so confused about her life so that her mom oftenly sad because of her confuses. She'd never been afraid of anything-- but now she is afraid of everything. She goes to work and she used to love her title as a designer but now she is worried about her future. She used to be confident to speak with stranger people, but now she goes very nervous everytime she has to speak with her -cold blooded murderer face- boss. She used to know what she wants, and she used to trying hard to reach her dreams, but now she doesn't even know what her dream is. She used to be not care with what people always say about this and that, but now she couldn't help herself to reconsider every little thing in her life. She now oftenly says, "Am I REALLY READY for that?" because she doesn't precisely knows whether she is really ready for the thing.
...

Oh, I'm sure the naughty and toothless little girl had no idea that in the future, she would be that- not toothless anymore but now in brace- woman.
And I am definitely sure that the woman is soooo surprised to realize that now she is not that little girl anymore!!

Okay then, time to reorganize life and rearrange the future!!
AAaaaa.. can't wait too long to be "the another woman", kikikikikikikiiiiii....
^_^

5 Comments:

Anonymous ikram said...

and what is exactly you mean by "the another woman"? :)

1:46 AM, May 31, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

waktu kecil lo pasti bwanddeell abes yak, gedenya aja masi bandel gitu lo hahaha

3:41 PM, June 04, 2007  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

maksudnya mau jadi ibu ibu gitu ???

11:52 PM, June 11, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi, how are you? You know it's been really hard to drop you comment here so I gotta put my name as anonymous.
your picture reminds me of a friend of mine when I was a kid, she was so cute and we used to play '1,2,3 Sun' with another kids on the block.
Another woman means? A mother, perhaps? Wish you the best, mother to be :)

kiddo-

12:55 PM, June 12, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

what a wonderfull letter there..is so beautiful!!! terharu nih ilma..hiks...

be tough ya!!

indRa

9:29 PM, June 27, 2007  

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Monday, May 21, 2007

A little prayer..

Ya Allah, show me and lead me the way...

Tunjukkan jalanku, bimbinglah langkahku, mantapkan hatiku...

*am I really READY to........................?*

Teman-temaaaan, mohon doanya yaaa... :)

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

emang mo ngapain lu mak?????

jangan2....

:O

12:51 PM, May 21, 2007  
Anonymous anggunpribadi said...

resign?

*Oh, get me away from here I am dying*

3:28 PM, May 21, 2007  
Anonymous anggunpribadi said...

have a relationship..

*I got through all this before you wake me up, So I can feel hapier to be safe again with you*

4:11 PM, May 21, 2007  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

ready to be in love again? heum? heum? heum?

ciye dulu ah..

11:06 AM, May 22, 2007  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

bo, mo merit yah? suitt... suitt... hehe

12:26 PM, May 22, 2007  
Blogger ikram said...

Ilma, makasih ya komentarnya! Sungguh berbobot!

11:09 AM, May 28, 2007  
Anonymous ilmaffectional said...

*tersenyum misterius penuh rahasia*

buat Ikram, sama2 ya :)

4:58 PM, May 28, 2007  

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Friday, April 20, 2007

I'm going deeper underground..


... there's too much panic in this town!!

No, it's not about a monster named Godzilla on the show, but it stands for a city of hell called Jakarta-- the capital city of Indonesia, the most hectic town with lots of shitty things around in every inch of details. You'll be suffered as a bitch or a prostitute living here-- Jakarta is like a guilty pleasure or sex toys with a torture of harassment (ha!). Yes, it might be ironic. Jakarta is a dreamland but could be mean and harmlful in the same time, because..

... there's too much panic in this town!!

For me personally, I hate Jakarta so much, but I should honestly admit that I can't help myself being treated by this town, with pain that blood out my sweat and tears but ended up with pleasure and 'orgasm satisfaction'. I mean, I've been living in Jakarta since working in my current office from August 2005, plus 3 months of internship in mid 2004-- equals about 2 years of bloody days in this cursed city, and this is where I share my sense, my talent, my brain and my body with pain, but then get "paid". Spending 22 years in such a peace heaven town named Bandung, selling my life in Jakarta means a great culture shock that hits my nerves repeatedly like hell. Jakarta has a great culture of hard competition in so many aspects. Lifestyle, money, occupation, or even a little thing in daily life-- everything can be a competition here. This culture has made Jakarta as a panic and hectic city-- plus, you should also notice that Jakarta is the gather center of so many ethnic groups of Indonesia, who occupied their body in this hell for a better luck instead of daydreaming peacefully in their hometown.

...there's too much panic in this town!!

Too much so that I couldn't tell you that much. But for me, yes, Jakarta makes me panic all the time in my whole 24 hours. First, the traffic jam. One of the most irritating thing in Jakarta is the traffic-- it jams all the time especially in peak hours in all the crowded districts. I live in a not-too-crowded and not-too-hectic- district. But I couldn't say more, still, the traffic is my biggest fear. It makes me crazy and panic every morning-- especially when I have to use public transportation with no AC-- the superheat of Jakarta is equal as the fire of hell, and it could increase my panic adrenaline so bad!!

The second is the panic situation in my office. Deadlines, meetings, presentations, rejections and revisions-- nothing more can I say except: I'm panic!!!

Next is about lifestyle, especially after office hours and weekend for me. Once again, I'm living in East Jakarta-- known as a minority district in Jakarta. I have no clue why my office is located in such an isolated area, perhaps it's in case of confidential matters. Most of industries and lifestyle centers placed in South or Central Jakarta-- so the party, big event or even my friend circle gathering is mostly held in South Jakarta. I like South Jakarta so much, even I have to cross Jakarta in hundred miles with traffic jam in several areas-- I never hate it because I could escape my mind from my daily panic routines of my job. But one of the problems that oftenly makes me panic is- the transportation to get me back home. Having an appointment after office hours in South Jakarta-- where most of my friends working and living-- means the time to spend is about 2 hours on the way. OK, 17.30 from office to 19.30 in meeting point, even sometimes is not a big deal to unleash my stress. And waiting for another panicky things like: rubber time friends, window shopping in the mall with all of its trend and price, admiring other Jakarta's flashy and glamour people with their own attractive style (which makes you realize about the HUGE gap between the poor and the rich in Jakarta), dealing for where we are going to have dinner, consider the place and the price, meal ordering, fun gathering and end up with taking pictures, etc-- all need about 3-4 hours. It means I have to anticipate myself to get secured by my friend's ride otherwise I got to take a cab and it's dangerous for my safety and wallet since my house is so far and the cab could be sooooo expensive to reach my house from South Jakarta.

Last but not least is the flood! I'm living about 10 minutes near Kelapa Gading, the riskiest area of flood in Jakarta. My area is thankfully safe from flood last February, but everything is so unpredictable in Jakarta. The problem is because of so many buildings that being built in highland areas and deforestated it badly, especially in Kelapa Gading district. I have to pass Kelapa Gading on my way to my office, and I used to get so afraid and panic everytime its rainy. Flood in Kelapa Gading means you can't go working (the office closed, yay!!), but you can't go anywhere either, including runaway and get some foods to eat.

So, here I am now, the longer I stand here, the deeper I go underground.. there's too much panic in this town!! H.E.L.P!!


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4:46 PM, April 20, 2007  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

siapa suruh datang jakarta..sapa suruh datang jakarta...

9:15 AM, April 23, 2007  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Welcome to the so-called 'konsekuensi untuk setiap pilihan hidup' ma.. Betul kata mas Imam, siapa suruh datang Jakarta.. Jadi kalau boleh mengutip tagline sebuah iklan rokok: 'Enjoy aja!'.. Life is too short to be worried about :)..

11:28 AM, April 23, 2007  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Maksudnya mas Iman, bukan mas Imam.. Maaf salah ketik *sebelum yang punya nama protes, hehe*..

11:29 AM, April 23, 2007  
Anonymous chibi said...

gue mah suka jakarta, metropilitan gitu... banyak gedung tingginya hihihi :P

6:20 PM, April 23, 2007  
Blogger agn said...

i got a headache also...

5:43 PM, April 26, 2007  
Blogger great ani said...

makanya, ayo ayo, kita bikin "dubai"nya indonesia...

7:12 PM, April 30, 2007  
Blogger cherokee said...

wow! I have not been here in a long time. It sounds as though you are going through a lot. Sometimes a move is a good thing--change opens doors you never would have expected. Why not come to the US, where your talents would go far? We do not have enough people with your specific skills. Just a thought.

12:07 PM, July 27, 2007  

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

...the story of a daily sh*t.


Here she is, a twenty something woman who used to sits behind the spacious desk with a big flat screen monitor and high spec processor of Mac, black and compact notebook on its left and big blue colored tablet on its right. She always sits on this blue pattern wide chair-- she would rather like to adjust her chair with that 30 degrees position so that she could feels her back comfortable than to make it high like her boss did.

At 7.45, she turns on her UPS, her notebook and Mac just seconds after. She types her password on her notebook, and waits until the Windows asks her to confirm it once again. She goes to the break corner for breakfast-- she likes to eat cereals with plain milk or a cup of hot Milo to succeed her new year resolution for healthy living after spending one full past year of no breakfast. Cheezy chit-chats with office mates is enough to makes her sick before working, so she goes back to her desk to starts her daily shits.

It's 8 o'clock, and work should be started. She HAS to start her work. But she didn't. She used to starts her job by checking emails, friendster, click meebo for IM-ing on her notebook. She loves to buzz her buddies to say hi or have some little chats, and she loves how her buddies keep greeting her every morning just to say 'keep your spirit and have a nice day'.
She clicks the 2 main software icons on her Mac dock, and she tries to find out where did she put her previous work files on her desktop folder. The files appeared, and she starts reviewing her latest revisions. She works with her tablet and tries to be high concentrated to her work. Her eyes blink frequently, more often than normal because of the radiation of the bright big screen. Minutes and hours left. She sighs, and she's hungry. It's still 9.30, and it's not tea break already. The office girl called and ask her what does she want to eat for lunch. She says she wants rice with fried spicy chicken and tofu-- she sometimes go to the mall to have some lunch variations, but not for today, she says. She looks on her notebook screen and sees some windows appear on meebo, calling for her. She answers it all, then says 'I'll be right back'.

She couldn't help her hunger. She goes to break corner to have a cup of tea-- and sees 2 boxes of snacks for tea break. Yeah! This is what she's looking for. She opens the box and finds her favorite snack on it. Yellowish pasta with egg and vegetable on it for today-- better eat it with chilli sauce. Perfect!! Break corner is full of hungry labours now, so she better back to her desk to continue her work.

She holds her tablet again and starts to focus on her revisions. Oh it's suck, she says. Everyone would agree if the previous design is much much better than the new refined ones. Ah, what the heck. She has to make it done to be presented to her boss after lunch break. But she doesn't have any idea for her work revision-- and she needs some inspirations from design sites on the internet. So she browses some interesting design sites by reference, and meebo-ing while waiting the loading site.

12 o'clock, time to have some heavy meals. She eats her order meals and goes to musholla after that. She goes to her desk and back for working, browsing and.. chatting. It is very important to socialize in the middle of exhausting time. We are not a robot, aren't we? Time passes by until she doesn't realize that it's 5 pm already. That is the time when she has to decide: is she going to back home or overtime?

No, thank you. She won't have overtime, she says. She has an appointment to spend quality times with her private life after office hour. That's what she likes most. She loves it, she loves her life, she loves herself, she loves her private life and she wouldn't waste her precious time, ANYMORE.

And there it goes, time passes by and the story repeats from Monday to Friday... with the same daily shits. That's why she loves Saturday and Sunday-- she wouldn't found the same stories as she has always had on the other days..

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bener. dunia kerja mang boring bgt. ketemu orang itu2 aja. 8 jam sehari yang gitu2 aja. kalo waktu smu/kuliah 8 jam tuh udah bisa ketawa2 ampe mampus ya? enaknya cuma pas gajian doank ya. eh padahal kan kerjaan desainer asik? coba lu jadi akuntan/admin, lebih males lagi!

1:15 PM, March 30, 2007  
Anonymous chibi said...

tabah...tabah... :)

kalo udh bete banget, mikir gini aja, at least masih kerja, masih digaji hehehe (indonesia bgt ya mikirnya)

12:24 AM, April 03, 2007  
Anonymous chibi said...

sori, off context nih

elo kerja di Honda kan? kapan Asimo masuk ke Indonesia? :P

gue seneng banget bacain blog-nya orang2 agency Wieden+Kennedy London,

http://wklondon.typepad.com/

apalagi team yg megang honda :P

http://wklondon.typepad.com/welcome_to_optimism/honda/index.html

1:54 PM, April 04, 2007  
Anonymous professional freelancer said...

Saatnya pindah kerja!! udaaaah, kek gue ajee, frilens lebih asik, bisa menclok sana sini sesuka hati, kek TTM ajeee, asik kan? mumpung masih muda XD

4:59 PM, April 13, 2007  
Anonymous ilmaffectional said...

>> anonymous: iya, kalo udah kayak gini suka inget jaman2 jahiliyah, gak ada beban.. btw anonymous siapa niiih, tulis dong namanya.. okeh2? tengkyu ya :)
>> chibi: bener, salah satu hal yang bisa bikin gw seneng lagi tuh kalo udah tanggal 25 aja, hihihi.. Btw, Asimo pernah masuk ke Indonesia, tp cuman mampir doang.. di kantor juga cuman ada miniaturnya yang bisa ngomong gitu, lucu deh :) Oya gw juga suka ngiri kalo liat TVC2nya Honda worldwide.. keren2!! (huhuhu)..
>> professional freelancer: ihh!! dasar.. bisaaaaaa aja lo kalo udah nyambung ke TTM! (tapi bener juga sih, hehehe)

8:39 AM, April 18, 2007  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

banyak omong lu ma!! huahahhahaaaaa... sok promo ikut 'siah - siah'an ,.. ah lebok siahhh.. wekekekkkkk..
Tapi sepertinya hari hari pekerjaan semua desainer mirip mirip,.. jadi memang inspirasi itu sepertiya datang dari either itu fs, multiply, ato itunes... hueheheee..
menarik... untuk ditelaah

9:44 PM, May 21, 2007  

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

Work Hard a Hard Work!

HUH.

Ingin rasanya saya berteriak dan memuncratkan buih-buih liur ketika semua perjuangan itu dimatikan oleh kata 'tidak'.

Ingin rasanya saya menjerit di hadapan muka mereka dan berkata 'tau apa sih lo 'nyet???'

Ingin rasanya saya menyalahi nasib yang memaksa untuk merelakan detik-detik 'hidup' yang berharga dan hanya dibayar dengan gelengan kepala.

Siapa bilang jadi desainer itu gampang??!!

.....


Huaahhh, gila.. bener banget apa kata orang tua saya waktu saya masih ABG, "Semakin tua, masalah yang akan kamu hadapi semakin banyak!". Begitu masa bodohnya saya saat itu, yang ada di pikiran hanya, "Alahhh, gue masih muda ini, ribet amat sih?!"


Dan bener juga apa kata mereka waktu saya masih suka merengek-rengek minta permen dan sering buang-buang makanan, "Cari duit itu susah!". Naif bener saya saat itu, dipikir cari duit itu semudah pengemis nongkrong di pinggir jalan sambil pura-pura sedih, dan duit cepek-an pun datang bertubi-tubi. Tapi semakin dewasa saya semakin menyadari, bahwa cari duit seperak aja perlu usaha- apalagi cari duit untuk bisa hidup dengan layak.

Saya juga gak pernah lupa apa kata ayah saya waktu saya bilang bahwa hidup itu ternyata susah. "Hidup itu sebenarnya tidak sulit, yang sulit itu adalah bagaimana kita menjalani kehidupan dengan bijak dan penuh tanggung jawab.."

Benar juga kalimat klise ini: Hidup adalah sebuah proses. Hidup itu perjuangan.

...

Sekarang-- saya sadar bahwa saya sudah bukan ABG lagi. Kini saya sedang menghadapi fase dimana saya harus bekerja keras untuk bertahan di pekerjaan yang keras ini-- dengan berbagai masalah dan suka duka di dalamnya. Ternyata 'cari duit' itu susah, itulah yang membuat saya menghargai setiap butir nasi yang saya makan, karena itu sebanding dengan butiran keringat yang saya keluarkan untuk mendapatkannya.

Dan tak hanya sekali; saya pun terhenyak dan tertampar dengan pernyataan; bahwa menjalani kehidupan dengan bijak dan penuh tanggung jawab itu luar biasa sulitnya.

Semakin lama saya menjalani proses berkarir, semakin besar perjuangan yang harus saya lakukan. Semakin banyak 'buah' yang saya hasilkan, semakin besar tanggung jawab yang harus saya pegang dengan bijak.

...

Sekali lagi, siapa bilang jadi desainer itu gampang, nyet?!

Here life goes; work hard a hard work.

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

cukup dewasa dan bijak, walau emosinya masih harus diredam.. tp tenang, semua butuh proses.. yang penting rasionya bisa mengimbangi. sukses ya :)

1:20 PM, March 07, 2007  
Blogger agn said...

We all, the newbies, share the same problema.. seperti kata Imaniar dan Lydia dalam lagu Ironi
"Mengapa berat jalan hidup yang harus ku jalaniii..."

Namun, semuanya pasti akan ada hasilnya.. amieeeennn

8:56 PM, March 07, 2007  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

emberrrrr cari duit susah banget

8:24 AM, March 11, 2007  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Ga mau comment apa-apa ah.. Mau kasih peluk aja buat Ilma.. Sambil bernyanyi: "For good times and bad timesI'll be at your side forever more.. That's what friends are for.." *smiling*..

3:58 PM, March 13, 2007  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>> anonymous: makasiih, iya nih masih emosian, tapi berkat ikutan siaware, gw jadi lebih ikhlas dan menerima, ciyeheheh..
>> agn: wow, artis2 idola tante2 gw tuh gun, hahaha... tp Lydia? Lydia sapa ya? iya gun, semua pasti ada hasilnya, amiiiinn :)
>> iman brotoseno: huhu..
>> neng asti: that's a very kind of you sweetheart, thank you soooo much.. *hug* :)

1:08 PM, March 14, 2007  
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8:38 AM, March 23, 2007  
Blogger great ani said...

ilma ilma...
lets change the statement...

work smart a smart work..

bukan begitu?
hihihih

8:47 AM, March 23, 2007  
Blogger scttrBrain said...

hi ilmaa!! uhuuy...how'r you hun!wekekeke..while you seems anticipating for each week-end, I'm still striving for my way towards office hour 8 to 5!! uhuhuhu...

ma, emang sgitu mboseninnya ya...padahal lu desainer gitu...mungkin gak cuma iklas n menerima kali ya...tapi butuh untuk menghidupi n live up the positive sides..ihihi..sotoy kan gw secara masih fresh grad ecek2 gini...

yuk ah. btw, I'd linked yours!! Cheers!!

7:04 AM, April 02, 2007  

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Friday, February 16, 2007

I miss the old days!





If only I could turn back time, I would go back especially to these moments:
My gorgeous and awesome high school time (God, it was EXCELLENTLY GREAT indeed!!), fun and hectic internship moment at Lowe Indonesia (had lots of experiences down there!), then my great and terrific college days (got so many 'challenging adventures' to have)..

I miss every second of my past, I mean it, and I really do. Oh, if only I could turn back every single second of my time.. Well, I know it's impossible, but at least photograph and brain could always rewinds a thousand memories of it :)

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Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

wah banyak yang postingan tentang memori nih...

4:36 AM, February 17, 2007  
Anonymous professional_freelancer said...

halah ogah gue balik ke itb, tugasnya banyak, begadang mulu, modalnya gede, duit keluarnya jg lebih gede! tp sr seru daripada ngitung2 kalkulus ya! hehehe..

11:23 AM, February 19, 2007  
Blogger agn said...

gw lagi di dasar terdalam dari mood gw nih ma..... dan tulisan mu mengingatkan ku pada hal2 manis di jaman dahulu.....hiks

10:50 PM, February 19, 2007  
Blogger Si Jagoan Makan said...

dibuat film aja "Based on true story Ilmaffectional blog" kereeennnn...tuh

3:23 PM, February 26, 2007  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>iman brotoseno: hihihi.. iya, lagi kangen masa muda :P
>professional freelancer: iyaaa kangen kampus tapi males ngerjain tugas2nya!
>agn: hiks hiks..
>si jagoan makan: eitss.. sedang dalam proses loh, hehehe.. :P

6:21 PM, March 06, 2007  

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

New Rising Stars*

So, what do you expect for a film that only have 3 days of shooting and editing with no budget at all? Okay, 3 days; two days for shooting, and one day for editing-- in the middle of other riotous official projects on the desk. As a nonprofessional filmmaker with no capable filmmaking equipment, no budget and no professional acting skill, we even had no idea how this film is going to be.

But then voila! These are a few pics of our film-- bet you guys will be surprised with all the casts!! They will be the new rising stars of the century, and you would down on bended knees hoping for their pics and autograph, ha-ha! XD


[to be continued..]

Don't be fooled by the horrible and awful cast. In reality, all of the actors and actresses are gorgeous and worth to be admired ;p

(PS. Look at the 4th picture- the poor and starving homeless girl who's ready to trash picking; looking for some foods- her act was undoubtedly great. I bet she's going to be a new Julia Roberts in the future. Yes, she is the next Academy Award winner!!)

Hahaha. :P

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Blogger Sarah said...

keep it going it looks good :)

5:45 PM, January 30, 2007  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

welcome to the new Nia Dinata !

12:32 PM, January 31, 2007  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

ooo pemulung masuk surga tuh maksudnya ini toh? gantiin agnes monica lo jadi bintang iklan honda? hahaha

9:39 AM, February 07, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

cool, want to watch the film.. may I? post it here would you?

9:09 AM, February 08, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

ma blog lo kok jadi aneh sih lay out nya? tiba2 berantakan gitu ukuran font nya gede2, perasaan kemaren2 engga.. knp bo?
btw mana dong filmnya pgn nonton dooongg!

8:02 PM, February 13, 2007  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>Sarah: thank you!! :)
>iman brotoseno: Hahaha, I'm flattered lohh, Nia Dinata is my role model!
>kill_lenon: hahaha, tunggu tanggal mainnya di channel tv kesayangan anda!! :P
>anonymous: thanks, but it is confidential.. sorry..
>anonymous: hah, masa sih?? baik2 aja kok.. lo pake apa? internet explorer? gw pake firefox sama safari oke2 aja kok, no problemo.. i.e nya lagi error kaliii?!

8:18 PM, February 13, 2007  
Blogger cherokee said...

ilma--i have not been here for a while. you didn't mention making a film. did i ever tell you my degree was in communications/media production? i have spent plenty of time in tv studios and behind cameras. anyway--i hope it turns out the way you imagined! chad

10:15 AM, February 25, 2007  

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

don'tjudgethebookbyitscover.

Atas permintaan dari seorang teman, khusus untuk postingan saya berikut ini saya akan pakai Bahasa Indonesia (biar lebih kerasa emosinya- dia bilang).


Suatu hari, salah seorang teman terbaik saya waktu kuliah tiba-tiba saja bilang begini:
“Tau gak sih lo ma, dulu gue pikir lo anaknya jutek.. eh tapi ternyata enggak, hehehee..”
“Maksud lo??”
“Iya, dulu waktu gue pertama kali liat lo, kesan pertama gue ngeliat lo tuh gue pikir lo orangnya jutek, sombong, dan suka pilih-pilih temen.. Kesannya lo tuh kayak cewek2 yang cuman mau temenan sama orang2 dari kalangan tertentu doang.. Ya gak tau ya.. kayaknya dari penampilan dan gaya pakaian lo aja gitu.. dan emang waktu jaman itu kan lo maennya ma gank nya des*y, in*, an*n, f*ra... mereka kan cewek-cewek gaya.. trus gue pikir lo anak Jakarta yang hedon sampe akhirnya gue kenal lo dan akhirnya tau deh kalo ternyata lo anak Bandung yang rajin sholat di arsitek..”

Saya saat itu bener-bener gak abis pikir kenapa teman saya ini bilang saya suka pilih-pilih teman lewat cara berpakaian dan pertemanan saya. Dan dia dulu mengira saya anak Jakarta yang hedon (????). Maksudnyahh??
“bla..bla..bla.. tapi ternyata pas udah kenal lo ternyata lo orangnya ramah, seru, trus gak pilih-pilih temen, bla bla bla…”

Yea rite.

Ada lagi sebuah percakapan ketika saya sedang dibonceng pulang kantor oleh seorang teman- yang mana saat itu kami sama-sama budek karena pake helm plus suara jalanan dan bunyi motor yang berisik sehingga sesekali terjadi miscommunication--
“ ... iya gitu, kalo saya liat sih kayaknya kamu emang masih belum dewasa…”
“Maksudnya?”
“Iya, dari cara berpakaian kamu.. keliatan aja masih belum dewasa..”
Lagi-lagi penilaian melalui cara berpakaian saya. “Emang cara berpakaian saya kenapa? Kok bisa dibilang keliatan masih belum dewasa??”
“Ya kamu kan sehari-hari ke kantor cuman pake kaos sama jeans doang.. Ya kamu coba deh sekali-sekali ke kantor pake baju rapi.. kemeja, blazer, rok gitu.. pasti keliatan lebih dewasa..”

OK. Kantor saya di pinggiran kampung yang panasnya amit-amit, debunya gak karuan dan setiap hari harus pake seragam kantor berupa kemeja putih yang sama sekali tidak nyaman dan membosankan. Kalo kantor saya di Sudirman tentunya gaya berpakaian saya gak bakal gembel kayak begini.
“Ooohh, jadi yang dari tadi kamu tangkep itu dewasa secara fisik ya.. dari tadi tuh saya ngomong soal kedewasaan pikiran dan mental!!”
“Iya, saya ngerti.. itu juga maksud saya.. gaya berpakaian kamu tuh bikin kesannya kamu masih main-main dan belum bisa serius dan dewasa.. “
“Lho, tapi kan yang namanya kedewasaan itu datengnya dari dalem.. dari pola pikir, dari tindakan, dari cara dia memecahkan masalah, dari…”
“Ya kalo udah ngobrol sih keliatan kalo kamu itu dewasa banget dan kadang bisa lebih dewasa dari saya…”

Tuh.

Pepatah yang bilang jangan menilai buku dari sampulnya atau jangan menilai orang dari penampilan luarnya- dan kedua kasus saya ini (dan beberapa kasus serupa lain yang terjadi pada saya) membuat saya semakin menyadari bahwa bagaimanapun manusia tidak bisa lepas dari penilaian luar.
Walaupun terus terang secara pribadi saya sendiri merasa jengkel dengan penilaian orang-orang tersebut terhadap saya itu, saya juga gak mau munafik sih, saya juga melakukan hal yang sama terhadap orang lain dan kadang akhirnya saya tersadar bahwa kepribadian orang tersebut tidak seperti persepsi saya terhadap penampilan atau pada kesan pertama ketika saya melihat dia.
Saya pernah punya teman yang penampilannya terlihat rapi, sopan dan baik ternyata brengsek dan kurang ajar. Malah sebaliknya, ada yang terlihat brengsek dan kurang ajar ternyata baik dan sopan- rajin sholat dan pinter ngaji pula. Wehehe.

Nah, yang terakhir ini adalah kejadian persiissss satu hari yang lalu-- waktu saya sedang beli nasi goreng untuk buka puasa di kaki lima seberang jalan komplek kosan saya. Karena sudah lapar luar biasa, akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk makan nasi goreng di kaki lima itu sehingga sesampainya di kosan saya tinggal sholat, mandi dan berleha-leha. Nah, karena saya makan sendirian dan suasana saat itu sepi, akhirnya saya ajak si mbak-mbak penjual nasi goreng itu ngobrol. Setelah cukup lama ngobrol akhirnya si mbak-mbak ini bertanya:
" ... lha mbak ini pulang kuliah toh?" Dari logatnya bisa dipastikan si mbak ini orang Jawa.
"Nggak, pulang kerja.."
"Oh, kuliahne' sambil kerdja ghitu?"
"Enggak, udah lulus.. sekarang udah kerja.."
"Lho emang mbak umurnya berapa?"
"Tebak!!"
"20 ya? ya 20-21 dhe.."
"Emang keliatannya umur segitu ya? hihihihiiii.. saya 24 mbak, Oktober tahun ini 25 deh..."
Tentunya saya udah cengar-cengir kegeeran aja.. aduh ternyata saya awet muda yakkk, hehehe.. Tapi menyebut kalimat terakhir, tiba-tiba saya jadi sedih. Huhu, udah mau 25 aja..
"HAAAHHHH????" Si mbak-mbak njowo ini tampak sangat shock dan kaget.. Wah kalian benar-benar harus lihat langsung deh tampang si mbak ini waktu tahu umur saya 24.. Bener-bener kaget! Saya sih cuman bisa nyengir seneng aja dibilang masih seperti anak kuliah berumur 20-21, hihihi...
"Lahiran 82 tho mbak? Lha aku adja lahiran 84 kok.."
"Haaahhhhh??" Nah, giliran saya yang kaget, padahal awalnya saya sangka si mbak ini kelahiran tahun '79.

Ngobrol ngalor-ngidul sana-sini lagi, si mbak kemudian nanya saya lagi,
"Aslinya orang mana tho mbak?"
"Tebak!!"
"Mmmh, Batak bukan.. Padang bukan.. apa ya.. dari ngomongnya sih kayaknya Maluku.."
"Hahhhh???? Maluku???? Kok Maluku sihhh???????" Sialan, baru kali ini seumur hidup saya ada orang yang bilang saya orang Maluku!!
"Ya dhari ngomongnya sih, soalnya waktu itu pernah adha orang Maluku yang makan dhisini, ngomongnya sama kayak mbak, cepet ghitu.. tapi dari mukanya sih... Jawa ya?"
Phhffieww.. udah kaget aja saya dibilang orang Maluku.. ternyata si mbak ini polos dan naif sekali, mengeneralisir orang yang ngomongnya cepat sebagai orang Maluku. Tapi dia bilang muka saya Jawa. Agak meleset sedikit sih, padahal saya ada Sundanya. Tapi saya sendiri mengakui kok kalau gen ayah saya lebih kuat, jadi saya lebih terasa Jawa daripada Sundanya.

Lalu si mbak ini nanya saya lagi, "Mbak anak ke berapa tho?"
"Tebak!!!"
"Lha kok saya dhisuruh nebak terosh, ya ndak tau.."
"Ya justru itu, saya pengen tau kalo orang baru kenal saya pertama kali, orang bakal nebak saya anak ke berapa.. kalo udah kenal saya kan orang udah tau saya anak ke berapa.."
"Ooo.. yang jhelas sih kalo anak pertama ya ndhak mungkin ya.."
"Kenapa gak mungkin?"
"Ya ndhak mungkin! Kalo anak pertama tuh pasti bhiasanya mukanya serius, orangnya ndewasaa, ghitu.. Lha kalo mbak kan sepertinya orangnya ceria, main-main, dan mandja ghitu.. pasti kalo saya bilang sih mbak anak ke dhuwa, atau bwontot lha.."
"Ooo.. gitu.." Saya pun terdiam beberapa saat, menunggu apakah dia akan menambahkan 'analisa'nya, sampai akhirnya saya bilang, " Tapi saya anak pertama lho, mbak..."
"HAAAAHHHHH??????" Lagi-lagi si mbak-mbak ini shock sampai matanya mau keluar, persisss seperti waktu dia kaget begitu tahu umur asli saya...

Laa-la-la-la-laaa.

Penampilan bisa menipu… Hal itulah yang akhirnya membuat saya berpikir bahwa idealnya sih, akan lebih baik jika kita menilai seseorang setelah kita benar-benar mengenal orang tersebut.


Jadi, kenali saya dulu, baru boleh menilai saya :)

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Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

saya kadang kalau meeting dengan klien atau ke kantor, pakai celana pendek..
gimana dong ?? he he met tahun baru ya

10:07 PM, January 10, 2007  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

hahahahahahahaha... asli ketawa gue baca ini
inget ga dulu gue pernah ngira lo anak basket padahal lo bisa basket aja kaga hahaha

11:46 AM, January 12, 2007  
Blogger cherokee said...

okay--i think i agree--but since i can't translate what you wrote...we'll just have to agree blindly. happy new year to you-wishing you the best! chad

6:53 AM, January 15, 2007  
Anonymous wills said...

suka deh sama postingan yg ini.. ringan, tapi 'berisi'.
keep it up ya! setuju, lebih baik menilaii orang kalau udah kenal sama orang itu. blm kenal kamu sih jadi gak bisa nilai deh :)

12:04 PM, January 16, 2007  
Anonymous bokir said...

don't judge the book by its cover? but you don't mind if i judge you by your book's cover? hehehe.. lebih baik kan?

4:55 PM, January 16, 2007  
Blogger mitatea said...

postingannya kayak gini donk. indonesian.. baru gw ngerti huehehehe...

cieeeh yang kesenengan karena disangka awet muda, mau donk...

tapi bener don't judge a book by it's cover... tapi susah juga seh, pasti aja kalo kenal seseorang, kita dah punya image awal... persepsi..

oya, ma, gw dah beres nih, alhamdulillah... mungkin april ini mau PTT ke Aceh... doain yak.. kalo ke bdg, kabar2i ya..

1:17 PM, January 17, 2007  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>iman brotoseno: hahaha, iya tuh pak, gimana coba?! nyebelin kan kalo cuman gara2 pake celana pendek dikatain gak professional atau apa gitu? hehe.. met taun baru juga yaaaaa :) Oya pak, btw pengeeen bgt deh isi komen di blognya, tp knp ya masuk ke kolom komennya aja susah bgt, error mulu.. bahkan ngisi shoutboxnya aja gak bisa.. Oya saya baru bikin film nih, entar deh saya post di postingan selanjutnya, sapa tau mas iman tertarik rekrut saya jadi talent buat film terbaru mas :p
>kill_lenon: yo'iii.. knp sih, emang gw terlihat keker ya bo? wekeke.. :P
>cherokee: hi chad, happy new year too. haha, well, bet you gotta learn Bahasa!! going to teach you if you want!
>wills: hehe, makasih wills.. iya kenal dulu baru bole ngasih testi :)
>bokir: hmmm, maksudnya apa nih?
>mitatea: hai mitaa.. selamat ya udah jadi dokter nih :) iya nih dok, kalo ada obat awet umur biar gak tua2 bilang2 ya dok :)

8:20 AM, January 23, 2007  
Anonymous U.D said...

wah jadi nggak enak nich gua ma... gua yang ngeboncengin elo nich..
huahahhahaha...

tp nggak nyangkalo.. memang ilma itu ternyata dewasa & fun to talk with & nggak pernah marah meskipun di "ceng"-in banyak orang...

pertahankan...

11:57 AM, February 20, 2007  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

wakakkkkk... ampe berantakan gue ketawa... il, .. gue tadi siang pan sms ke lu ketemu temen sma lu,.. eh dia komentar gini,.. ahh si ilma mah cerewet ! .. huahahaaaa.. iya bener juga yah ,.. pertam kali liat lo di kampus juga emang kayak nya lu mah ember orangnya .. huahaaaa

5:44 PM, February 26, 2007  

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Monday, December 18, 2006

New Year, New Me.

Tic.. toc.. tic.. toc..
God, I can’t help my self of those boring jobs on my desk anymore! But I’m going to have a Christmas and New Year holiday starts from 23 December 2006 to 2 January 2007, and I’m gonna spend my days in LONDON!!!!! YEAHHH!!!

Sure it was a lie. Okay, just another dreams of mine. Ha-ha.
London is the place where I always really want to go to, and I’m promise my self that I’ll be there, stepping my foot above the land. Sooner, or later. *crossing fingers*

Anyway, 2007 is about to come, and I honestly have some personal targets to be achieved. Have been thinking about it after had a quite serious self-evaluation of my personal 2006 resolutions-- then I realized that some of my next year targets are more perfectly called as a LIFE REVOLUTION rather than a resolution.
I personally consider it as a big life challenge and it may take some risks, and I honestly have a great hesitation, “AM I REALLY GOING TO DO THAT???”

However, some people say that life is about taking a risk. Humm.. just wait until the end of 2007 and let see whether I really have done the big life revolution or even not at all, haha. Bismillah, lillahi ta’ala.

Okay then, just wanna say have a nice holiday for you guys (What? Your company doesn’t allow its staff to have a long New Year holiday?? Poor you, lalalala, hahaha..)
And it’s time for me to take a flight to London; my plane is about to take off this evening (in my dream). Happy New Year everyone!!!! :)

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Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

Wahh...lucky banget,...but London in December ? its freezinggggg..
Oleh oleh dong ( what..siape lu ), annyway have a nice holiday, ...

1:57 PM, December 19, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

hah !! gue tahu banget revolusi lo apaaan!! sms nya masih ada tuh,... hueheee tapi nak jangan menunggu agustus yah .. akyuu mau februari ini sepertinya ..

walaupun daku tua renta dan miskin papa paling gak datengnya gak pake wangsit di tengah malem bolong .. hueheheeee..
sama seperti mimpi ke london tengah siang bolong, jauh jauh ke longdong mending 'good night, MANCHESTER !!' di dago aja ,.. huahahahaaaaa.. gue membandung nih kayaknya tahun baru .. huhuuuuu..

2:42 PM, December 19, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

gw taun baru dengan berada dikamar ditemani sebatang lilin (muaaaless banget..) Tapi biasanya sih, seperti tahun lalu, gw tidur jam 9 dan bangun jam 7. Apalah ini tahun baru, menurut gw nggak ada beda2nya ama hari-hari yang lalu.

6:48 PM, December 19, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

palingan yg bikin beda semangatnya. Itu doang yg gw kejer. BIasa, bikin point2 dalam kehidupan.

6:48 PM, December 19, 2006  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

De Il, daripada jauh2 ke london mending liburan ke surabaya aja, nengokin calon ibu yang cantiiik... hehe.. eh, mba zat dah lahiran loh, cewe, cakep kayak tantenya yang di surabaya, hahahaha!

2:53 PM, December 20, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>>iman brotoseno: oleh2? siap! tapi tar ya nunggu dapet undangan prince william dulu nih.. ;p
>>joesoef13: blom tentu jg sih, masi blom mantep nih wa.. nunggu wangsit yang berikutnya dulu deh, hehe..
>>agn: setuju gun, saatnya bikin hidup lebih hidup dan bermakna :) Tenang gun, London kan tetangganya Aberdeen, tar gw temenin deeeeh.. duh agun, sebatang lilin.. ky di Aberdeen gada lampu aja, sedih gw bacanya, hahaha..
>>nadine-zaki: oya? selamat ya buat mbak zati :)

8:41 AM, December 21, 2006  

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Thursday, November 23, 2006

it is NOT easy!

It was not only just once- but believe me- hundred million times— since I was in college people used to ask me this:


“ What have you learned in this college so far? Bet you don’t have to study too hard like us- you’re only do drawing, right? Gee, studying in art and design faculty must be so fun!”

Only do drawing you say?!
They didn’t know that there were mmmmilllion assignments to be done and spent lots of time only for making those artworks to be APPRECIATABLE. And it was not just a drawing, bottom line. Where did you put the word of CONCEPT?
Fun, YES indeed. True, we didn't do math, calculus, physics or chemistry like those in science and technology faculties, but please recall yourself for not underestimate of what an art and design faculty student has done for 4 years or more in college.

“What is your job desc on your work? Oh, graphic designing. Ha?? Was it that hard so that you frequently should have overtime- working 18 hours a day or more
from 8 to 3 in the morning? Designing is a fun thing to do, isn't it? Since it was fun, I think it must be easy to do, right?”

Did I mishear or something? No, I think since it was a hundred million times question directly to me- I believe that my ears work correctly. Working in design is not that easy- let me repeat it please- it-is-NOT-easy!!
Designing is like a long long road to pass through, and you never know when and how great idea comes up on your brain to create a great design. And on this professional world, you got to think how to create a great design that could be ACCEPTED by those –bad sense of art- CLIENTS (sorry Misters, but you are), assure and recommend them the best design (which is really hard because of their conventional way of thinking- sometimes), and the most important thing is- to be accepted and APPRECIATED by public a.k.a consumers.


And we got to have overtime, over and over again, doing meetings, revision,
preparing presentation and stuffs, meeting again, revision again until we get sick of our own design.. then we realize that we have no time for our private life, even only for sleeping! HHhhhh….

Okay, gotta stop sighing. Got to remember this verse. "Then which of the favours of your Lord, will ye deny?" [ArRahman 55]

By the way, taking a nap at cubical is like a peaceful sleep in paradise after weeks full of overtimes. Sometimes I steal my office hour only for taking a nap for a while in my own cubical—(sure if there is no boss around!), but well, believe me, those 3 ugly guys are even more dangerous than my boss!! If they were around, my ‘paradise’ turns to be like hell. Aaaarrgghhh!!!


So girls, if you ask me whether is there single cute and lovely guys in my office or not, I’d rather say NO *sorry guys, hahahaha!!*

Can’t wait for x'mas and new year holidaaaaaayyyyyy!!!!!!

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

gak bosen ma ketemu barudak gelo itu lagi di kantor?

-zwz-

9:30 AM, November 24, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

zwz teh saha nya? Isma yaa? ismaa apa kabaarrr??? wah, bukan bosen lagi yahhh.. secara mereka senior di sr gituhhh... *salutlah sama cewek2 desain produk seperti lo ma, ketemu makhluk2 gila kayak gini tiap hari waktu kuliah!!*

9:41 AM, November 24, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Menurut saya yah, kerjaan yang ga pake overtime berlebihan, ga pake depresi, ga pake revisi, ga pake ngejar-ngejar klien, ga pake digangguin temen kantor, ga pake nangis darah, ga pake dikejar deadline, ga pake klien pelit dan rese, itu bukan kerjaan yang menyenangkan! justru seninya di situ.. hahaha..

me, now, depressed. but me really enjoy this job *sakit jiwa*.. hahaha..

10:44 AM, November 24, 2006  
Anonymous zwz said...

bukan, bukan isma yeee.. ayoo sapa cobaaa? mungkin gara2 lo satu2nya cewek di desain kali ma jadi lo diisengin mulu, haus cewek kali mereka hahaha.. plg muda dong di kantor??

4:11 PM, November 24, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>asti, apa perlu ya kita bikin klub wanita2 sakit jiwa? (jiwa, dalam arti kata sebenar-benarnya, huhuhuhuhuhu)
>zwz, ha.. sapa dong?? gak satu2nya cewek kok, kan ada jepun dp98.. paling mudaa, iya emang saya masi muda kooo, hehe..

udah ampir jam 12 malem nih, masi cari2 konsep dan nunggu panggilan meeting revisi di kantor.. sampey pwageeeeeeeee!!!

12:04 AM, November 28, 2006  
Anonymous professional freelancer said...

hahaha.. seru bgt sih kantor loooo!!! kocak!! ya namanya jg cari duit, dibawa asik aja lagi, mumpung masi muda ntar kalo udah punya suami mesti rela lo hidup full utk keluarga

5:02 PM, November 29, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

ingat bahwa orang yang banyak bersyukur akan ditambahkan nikmatnya oleh-Nya. makasih jg uda ngingetin g sama ayat arrahman itu

6:47 PM, November 29, 2006  
Anonymous professional freelancer cari proyekan said...

oya liburan ngapain euy? proyek masa lalu gmn nasibnya?

12:24 PM, November 30, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

wuah, sekarang gw bisa ngeliat kantor lo itu ya!! Tampak sangat sibuk sekali skrg ilma!

2:58 PM, December 02, 2006  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

makanya anak anak agency begitu hang out hari jumat malam, ..bener bener total !!! biar nggak depressi. ha ha

11:20 PM, December 02, 2006  
Anonymous sancok_brancok said...

hehhehe... mbak ilma..overtimenya brapa lama sih? seberat apaan? hehhee...
semuanya disukurin ajadeh...masih ada yg lebih berat dari honda...hehehe...
gw aja setiap hari overnya bisa 2harian...belum dimarahin ma atasan dipresure...gak ada lemburan...lho kok curhat...tapi alhamdulillah yang penting barokah...amin amin amin...

10:09 PM, December 09, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

>professional freelancer cari proyekan: iya dun, seru sih seru.. tapiii.. yaa, you know what i mean. Oh tentu kalo saya sudah berumahtangga saya mau jadi istri yang mengabdi pada keluarga dong, hehe.. proyek masa lalu? humm.. lupakan saja deh.. tar aja kapan2, wekeke..
>kill_lenon: Amiiin.. insyaallah akan tetep inget :)
>agn: haha, segitu sih gak seberapa gun, itu meja gw lagi rapi2nya.. biasanya banyak tumpukan kertas sketch bekas revisi, schedule, post it comment dari bos beserta cemilan2 gurih di sekelilingnya, hehehe..
>iman_brotoseno: kalo saya sih tiap jumat bawaannya pengen cepet2 pulang ke bandungggg!!! hehehe..
>sancok_brancok: bener cok, dipikir2 emang gw harus banyak2 bersyukur, apalagi kalo dibandingin ma lo yak, wekekeke.. amiiin, yang penting mah barokah ya cok.. salam ya cok buat tora ;p

6:05 PM, December 11, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

perasaan udah post comment tapi gak muncul muncul... huhuuuu.. sensi yah il..
oya itu tuh.. 'fabiyai alai...bla bla bla.. kadziban' seperti pernah baca di posting sapa gitu..
makanya il kalo ngerasa bosen sama pekerjaan tuh sodakoh ,.. traktir orang ... bikin janji gitu ke diri sendiri 'saya harus berderma!' ..
pasti meriah siah hidup lo ..

9:16 AM, December 12, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

WOAMPOOON! lagi2 tagihan mentraktir dari si ikwanjusup.. tumben lo implisit gitu kali ini wa??? minta ditraktir mulu deh lo wa, herrrrannn!! dimana2 ya wa, orang yg lagi seneng yang nraktir orang yg perlu dibikin seneng, gimana sih lo?!????!!!!

12:33 PM, December 12, 2006  

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Friday, November 10, 2006

It's complicated.

Life is simple, but not that simple. Love is wonderful, yet sometimes painful. To live a life with love is a liberty, but to live a love in life is not always be an eternity. The point is, love and life depends on fate and destiny with a bit of luck and… sacrifice.


Anyway, well, this must be a little sensitive though (let me repeat: SENSITIVE, so, I apologize), but here I would share some stories about this never ending sensitive case of love and life.

She’s a Muslim, and he’s a Christian. They’ve been together for a very long time and will get married soon. She will always be a Muslim, and he will always be a Christian. End of story, yet still complicated.
She’s a Muslim, and he’s a Christian. They’ve been together even much longer than the first couple. She will always be a Muslim, and he will always be a Christian. The story still goes and not yet ended. Clashes and contradictions between both of their family still disturb their future.

NO, I don’t and never ever mean to be rude- it is none of my business. Yes, it is NONE of my business. But…

Been there. Almost done that. It’s complicated.

The freedom of faith is absolutely a self authorization, yet still be- sometimes and even mostly- a family ‘prerogative thing’ of principle life beliefs. Yet, it IS also an absolute principle thing for each person to be committed directly to God though. Hummm…

End of story. It's complicated..

9 Comments:

Anonymous boogie_hoogie said...

betul. jgn maen api lah ma, pusing sendiri tar lo

6:15 PM, November 10, 2006  
Anonymous chibi said...

Interesting topik, Ma :)

Btw, udh pernah liat ini?

One Chinese Boy
One Malay Girl
One unforgettable love story

A Yasmin Ahmad film

SEPET
(bahasa indonya; sipit)

trailernya ada di sini


tell me what you think :)

2:21 AM, November 11, 2006  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

I'm sure you know the answer exactly, sweety... :)

9:47 AM, November 13, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

kalo lo been there almost done that .... gue mustinya bisa bilang forsaken in beetwen ...

well jujurnya after all said and done, I'd say you might be right about Don't mind someone else is business.. that's and important lesson, kecuali memang ini negara komunis dan agama sudah dilarang.. huehheeeee..

6:24 PM, November 13, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

Ilma Girl...this is a story playing out around the globe. Strip away the idea of religion, and it will be something else. No matter what-even from the same background, there will be differences. Maturity-understanding-and openness make a big difference in helping "accept" the differences--and more than that-to "celebrate" the differences, which make us all beautiful and unique individuals. Your should read "Love" by Kahlil Gibran...he speaks on the subject like no-one else. Let me attach it...here:

Kahlil Gibran on Love

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.



Okay--hope you liked it. Talk to you soon--chad

8:15 AM, November 15, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Follow your heart but use your head. Yes we live in a world full of differences. And we'll never stop asking why for that.

But you'll stop asking when you finally realize who is your True Love.. The One who gives you everything you have in your life..

5:36 PM, November 15, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

solat! solat!!! hehehe

1:03 PM, November 16, 2006  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

I like you notes...Life is simple, but not that simple. Love is wonderful, yet sometimes painful. To live a life with love is a liberty, but to live a love in life is not always be an eternity. The point is, love and life depends on fate and destiny with a bit of luck and… sacrifice...
To me depend on the person, if they make complicated, and so complicated they have...

10:56 PM, November 17, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

> boogie_hoogie, yg maen api tuh sapaaaa.. haha, kpn curhat2 lagi gie?
> chibi, thx :) tapi gw blom nemu tuh trailernya... nyarinya dimana nih?
nadine-zaki, what answer nih? ;p
> joesoef13, hmm, kayaknya deja vu deh, hhehehe..
> cherokee, thanks, it was soooo inspiring!!!! nice quotes ever!
> neng_asti, thx, let's chat and discuss again :)
kill_lennon, insya allah, selalu itu mah :) elu juga dong ndre, gmn sih lo.. hehe..
> iman_brotoseno, makasih pak :).. tp balik lagi, dibikin simpel jg gak bisa sesimpel itu..

11:07 AM, November 23, 2006  

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

Self Dialogue

Dear ME,

Do you remember, Mother used to say that 24 years ago, she was struggling against death and the pain for giving you a chance to see the world? Yes, I remember. She said that it was the greatest experience she has ever had, having me as her first child.

Do you remember, your parents used to say that you were the most beloved person in family? Yes, they told me about it million times. It’s all because I’m the eldest great-great-grandchild, the eldest great-grandchild, the eldest grandchild, and the eldest children on my family.

Do you remember, when you were 13 you started to fall in love- you had some puppy love but you were so scared because your father would be really angry if you have a boyfriend at that time? Yes, oh... those sweet little boys. They were just only could call me by phone pretending to ask the homework.

Do you remember, at 15 you were really-really fall in love for the first time and got your heartbroken for the first time either? Yes, we had spent our time together for a while but we were too naive to understand what a relationship is all about.


Do you remember, your parents were so angry with you because you got lots of bad marks on your high school? Yes, my high school moment was so gorgeous. But I was too busy with my teenage world so I had missed the lessons a lot.

Do you remember, your parents were so happy for you when you were accepted at ITB and so proud of you when you were graduated with a good predicate? Yes, the tears of happiness fell down and prayers recited from their heart, wishing me a bright future.

Do you remember, last year you were full of confusions about your love, life and carrier; and your parents patiently gave you lots of advice and wisdoms? Yes, and now I’m not in doubt anymore. Their support is always reminds me to be thankful for all the blessing gift of Allah and to be optimist to see the future.

And here you are, dear me. 24 years is like a long road you had been passed through. Yes I am, dear me. And what I have to do is to thank Allah for everything. My apology for sighing and complaining too much, yes I do believe that The Almighty knows what the best for me is. And He has given me all the best for me on the best way and the best moment too.

Happy 24 years, dear me. Now let’s look forward and pass through the rest of your road until The One calls you to heaven. Thank you, dear me. May Allah’s bless be with me always…

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Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

Happy belated birthday, hunny! wish you all the best. Semoga hidupmu selalu berguna bagi agama, keluarga dan sesama. Amiinn...

10:44 AM, October 14, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy birthday honey.. :)

10:56 AM, October 15, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

met ultah lagi yaa.. beneran tu sms g kirim tepat jam 12! emang bolot tu m3!

2:14 PM, October 16, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Thank youuu :)
Kindly be informed that I still welcome the birthday gift lohhh!! hahaha... ;p

2:20 PM, October 16, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

makan2 dulu dong baru kado. dah dpt kado dr siapa aja emang?

2:28 PM, October 16, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

weee.. kado dulu baru makan2! hehe..
Aaada dyeeeh.. ;) *wink wink*

3:19 PM, October 16, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

selamaT

7:55 PM, October 16, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

thx. ditunggu kado specialnya berupa tiket pulang pergi ke London ya, agun sayang.. wehehe..

8:31 AM, October 18, 2006  
Anonymous chibi said...

nicely told, good writing.

above all else, Happy Belated 24 years old, dear :)

12:40 PM, October 18, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

thank you chibiii :)

1:16 PM, October 18, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

ngemeng aja lahhh... mana trkatiran .. kalo begini caranya percuma jadi tua ... dan tidak bijak terhadap traktiran.. huahahaaaaaa

3:54 PM, October 30, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

Happy Belated birthday! It has been a long time for me. I just spent a month away from home. Being in my own bed again is nice. Unfortunately, I'll be leaving again for most of December.
when I have time, I'll email you a few of the new photos I took. THey turned out nice. Take care..
Chad

2:01 PM, November 09, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Thanks for all.. :)

9:02 AM, November 15, 2006  

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Women are from Venus, Men are from... sh*t.

One day, at a warm and lovely living room in a sweet little house in Bandung.

There was a girl, lying lazily on her favorite sofa— a broken yellow colored comfortable long chair with two little pillows on it- watching television while chewing her favorite spicy snack and pretended to forget her diet.
Next on her left, there was her mother, wearing her blue flower pattern house dress, sitting on the same sofa with her second daughter who had just back from her college class.
Their eyes were watching to the same thing; a gossip show on the TV reporting some celebrities and a famous government official who had just divorced after been living peacefully with their wife for more than 20 years. The hottest news was about the Secretary of State- a fifty something old man who had divorced his 23 years marriage wife because he had his second marriage with a 19 year old girl, which is much younger than his son.

“Oh, shame on him! Yusril Ihza Mahendra used to be my idol, remember? I chose him on the last election; I thought he was so charismatic and responsible in every aspects! Oh my God, after 23 years of marriage he meant to divorce her wife just because of THAT 19 year old girl??” Still on her seat, her mother was in a great shock- she couldn’t believe what she had heard.


“WHAT? Is that true, Mom? Oh my God, I thought it was about his eldest son wedding! I thought his eldest son who had just married! I don’t get it!” The girl was so surprised and regretted- she had missed the news climax because she was too concentrated to the spicy snack on her hand.

“Ohhh... he begins to be so disgusting to me! Look at his new wife! She’s even younger than his eldest son! She is younger than me, Mother! Just imagine, that man is as old as Dad—and he marry a girl younger than me? Give me a break!” Her sister yelled emotionally commenting the news.

The screen showed some captions about the Secretary of State wedding, his broken hearted wife and the narrator seemed to provoke the audience to criticize it emotionally. The screen changed to the host- a pretty woman with mysterious face and frightening eyes- reporting some other celebrities who also have the same case with that old man.

“…and who doesn’t know about Ray Sahetapi? He also had successfully fill the entertainment news some moments a go, surprising and disappointing his fans by divorcing his 26 years of marriage wife, Dewi Yull and marry this woman (Ray Sahetapi’s new wife picture showed). And NOW, the most shocking news comes from this charismatic entertainer we’ve ever had; the very well known quiz presenter Koes Hendratmo. Who has ever thought that he would divorce his wife after 41 years of beautiful marriage? Rumors said that he is now in a relationship with a stewardess (Koes Hendratmo interviewed, some video captions showed on the screen)
...........”

“What a world. Everyone turns to be insane! 41 years of marriage! Oh God. And hey, he IS NOT young anymore! He had forgotten his 41 years lovely moment just for a short time. I don’t get it. What else is he looking for? He supposed to realize that his life won’t be long anymore since he is more than 60 right now!” Once again, her mother was terribly shocked and tried to believe what she had heard about this ladies and housewives idol.

The girl was so speechless. She began to hate men. “Do I have to be a lesbian?” She thought. No. Of course not, she was just joking. A cynical joke. A pathetic thought. But the show had made her think that men are made from shit. Men have no heart- they are mean, and the most terrible thing inside her head was, never ever trust men.

Now, what she really need is something-- or A REAL MAN that could prove her thought about men was wrong…

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Blogger The blogger formerly known as JIFF said...

Calm Down
Not every single man is made of shit, some indeed are, but there are also women made of shit.

That is a terrible thing to do, I agree with couples who choose to try to live with each other for a little while and then marry

At this point in their lives I believe it is late for getting married again

But what about the girl?

She is going to marry a man as old as his grandad just because of money

8:13 AM, September 26, 2006  
Anonymous chibi said...

lucu... bukan story-nya yang lucu, tapi the fact bahwa gue lagi ngehandle project dimana insight-nya adalah insecurity cewek yang udah kawin bertahun-tahun, takut suaminya berpaling ke cewek yang lebih muda... ahblablabla (boring)

but, iya.. gak semua men itu sucks. Gak semua women juga baik-baik (lha liat gue..apa gue itu cewek baik2? bwahahahaha)

12:46 AM, September 28, 2006  
Blogger great ani said...

setuju....
saya berasal dari sebuah tempat dimana woman is made of shit...haha...

8:55 PM, September 29, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

heee jgn mengeneralisir gitu dong, ga semua co busuk.. inget tshirt lo yg i hate boys they're stupid? g ada jwbnya, i love girls, mau aje dibegoin, hahahahahaha

yg jelas ga smua co tae, buktinya g co baek2.. haha

lah lo? emang lo cw baek2 ma? hahaha

3:22 PM, October 02, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

ada apa dengan lohika dan hate ?huehehhehe ,.. dulu pernah ngebahas deh ,.. gak ada sangkut pautnya yah.. *lo lagi menulis dengan hati il ?*

4:53 PM, October 05, 2006  
Blogger adi nugroho said...

jender oh jender.. hehe

kebaikan hanya ada pada hati tidak pada penis dan vagina... : )

9:25 PM, October 05, 2006  
Blogger adi nugroho said...

WUPS! eh.. itu ilmiah yah ma.. hehehe

9:26 PM, October 05, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Guys, did I mention the subject of this post (the girl) is ME????

Israel, thanks for stopping in :)
mmmmhh.. for that, i have no idea either.. but maybe they considered it as a good start for their future life-- being rich so they could get a better life then?
But still, those man should be ashamed by himself. They forgot that behind a great man (in this case- also a great life and great carrier for DECADES) there's a great woman (their wife) that had sincerely supported them for everything.

Chibi, okay, count me in for that, hahaha..

Ani, go away from that place immediately, or you're going to be as shit as them if you don't!

Kill_lenon, please do not ever stupify girl again! haha.. Me? of course I'm a pretty innocent girl who loves pure affection and won't disgrace the trust and responsibility of a commitment. :)

Joesoef 13, ratio and emotion, yeah, hehe.. well, for this you can call it as an emotional ratio or rational emotion.

Adi nugroho, yes, kindness comes from heart, not from that (you named it) scientific name. Agreed.

11:54 AM, October 06, 2006  
Blogger mitatea said...

God does not create enough volume of blood to fulfill the brain and penis at the same time !

7:39 AM, October 10, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

Sounds like you are living in France, the United States, Italy, etc... I always wonder what a 53 year old would have in common with a 19 year old--then I remember, it all goes on behind bedroom doors. Personally, I can't imagine marrying someone that young, but I have dated people younger, up to 10 years younger. In the end, those didn't work out for me---they still had some growing up to do. Have you heard of John F. Kennedy? Bill Clinton? FDR? LBJ? There were all Presidents--and they all had affairs with younger women...while in office. In the end, it only matters if these people do good for your country--and to not worry about their personal lives-because I certainly don't want them a part of mine. :)

4:14 AM, October 11, 2006  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

can i share regarding yusril's case..everyone made wrong opion,..the truth is yusril ex wife really gone too far. Dia tidak mentreat yusril as a goodwive, in fact she shouted to him in front of his colleagues...the point she doesnt perform as a ministry wife..and all yusril's friend ( includes SBY ) support his decision eventually.
( sumber inner circle of Merdeka Palace )
But his choice to rika is something else.

4:09 PM, October 11, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Mitatea, yeah, I think you should take an observation about that for your doctor course. :p

Cherokee, ha.. I knew you would say that. Well, the point of this post is about marriage trustworthiness, and I wouldn't involve their jobs and professionalism as well.

Iman Brotoseno, hallo Pak.. Hohoho.. there must be a reason why she was so goddamn overreacted-- supposedly, right? Hehe, sure his colleagues supported him-- since it is not a corruption case and won't suffer country financial loss, isn't it?

8:56 AM, October 12, 2006  
Blogger Iman Brotoseno said...

ha ha ha...that somenthing else too...

11:51 AM, October 12, 2006  

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Monday, September 04, 2006

I’m a toothless grandma!!

I have messy teeth. My upper jaw is a little bit too far from my lower jaw, and my front lower jaw teeth are a bit messy. Last week I went to the dentist and installed braces (a wire device fitted in the mouth to straighten the teeth) to tidy it up. Honestly, my private dentist had been asking me thousand times since I was in elementary, but everything is about money though. Installing braces is quiet expensive, so after one year of saving money (ha-ha) I decided to make it.

Anyhow, when my dentist asked me to choose what rubber color I want to wear on my braces, I chose the black one. He actually showed me some rubber colors, there were pink, blue, yellow, green, and so on—but I did chose black because I was thinking that other colors are too fancy and coquettish, while black is going to look cool—my thought that day.

Then voila. Please do not laugh at me because I do actually shock on my own looking my face like a toothless granny, ha ha ha!! Till now, I regreted to have chosen the black one— Rule number one; black supposed to be cool, but not every black is cool. It doesn't look that cool on braces!! A friend of mine who used to wear braces told me not to wear red, green and yellow because it's gonna look like a slipped food. Promise you that I’ll wear the pink one next month.

PS. Installing braces on your teeth means you couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep and couldn’t speak with good articulation for weeks. Aaarrgghh.. it hurts!!

11 Comments:

Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

lucu ko (dalam arti kata sebenarnya) hahahahaha

12:09 PM, September 04, 2006  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

OMG! Is that really you, De Iil? *lol* tapi kayaknya De Il masih keliatan maniz koq (sambil nutup mata, hehehe) --anyway, I'm pregnant!

12:40 PM, September 05, 2006  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

after "analyzing" you carefully --face to face-- I decided to make these confessions: you're still pretty, dear! You're not that bad... You're not a toothless grandma. You're the coolest grandma!! ha-ha!

1:24 PM, September 13, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

hihiihihih...

4:16 PM, September 13, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

In my opinion you look adorable. If I were as brave as you, and not so vain, I would also get braces. You look great! Cherokee (Chad)

10:01 PM, September 15, 2006  
Anonymous boogie_hoogie said...

Gpp asal jgn yg kuning aja, kaya jigong!

12:33 PM, September 21, 2006  
Blogger azwin baplang said...

hahahahah ma itu berapa centi maju kedepan!! ati ati loh kalo frenchkiss katanya suka nyangkut!!! ma ada sebagian cowo yang seneng liat cewe berkawat....moga2 lo dapet cowo gara - gara kawat lu yah!! sukses!!

1:11 PM, September 21, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Ahahahahhh.. makasih2, ternyata kalian perhatian juga sama saya yah *yea rite* weekekeke...

Udah kok win, udah dapet.. dan pastinya bukan cuma gara2 kawatnya doang kayaknya, tapi juga karena daya sangkutnya yang sangat dahsyat ketika french kissing, wakakaka.. XP

Fyi, sabtu ini gw akan ganti warna pink!!! yeahhh!! *penting ya?* :P

1:22 PM, September 21, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

pas liat aslinya si item lucu2 aja sbnrny, lo aj yg tlalu berlebihan, gak ko, manis :). akirnya lo ganti pink y, blm liat g..

12:14 PM, September 27, 2006  
Anonymous chibi said...

cute ah.. kaya anak kecil :)

12:43 AM, September 28, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

hehehe.. tengkyu2, ah jadi maluuuu..

1:37 PM, October 07, 2006  

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

And the award goes to…

Standing on Citra Pariwara stage as the award winner and holding the trophy is one of my dreams. Last month, I was trying to make it come true by participating Daun Muda Award, one of Citra Pariwara category particularly for fresh art director and copywriter.

A friend of mine recommended me to Lala, a copywriter of an advertising agency called Chuo Senko Indonesia— thanks to Yahoo Messenger, minutes later we became partner and arranged an appointment of meeting for brainstorming. Firstly met for a basic brief and a –tying to craft great ideas but failed— I found that Lala was as excited as me to win this award, and after lots of conversation we had, I believe that we are going to be a good team- I suppose.

2 weeks to deadline. It seemed long enough to prepare the concept and ideas—but damn, life is simple— but not that simple. Lala was sooo busy, and so was I. So, we just only can use telephone, email and Y!M to share ideas and discuss. She was preparing a pitch and presentation for these whole 2 weeks, and I was busy for my product launching.

We were deadly panic because we haven’t got any great ideas [that we believe could make the juries say FU*K!!] until about 3 days before deadline. Still, Lala was goddamn seriously busy so that she stayed overnight at her office for 2 days *OMG!!*. But, believe me, great ideas sometimes popping up on the brain at the last minutes. After whole midnights of brainstorming on the phone [Lala called me from her office from 10pm to 2am almost for 3 nights] and one day of fail photo session, we finally got the answer precisely on the last hours before deadline. We both like the ideas, even her Creative Director said that with this concept, we got a big chance to win *Amen*.

Due to our big ambition to win, surely we both couldn’t sleep peacefully before the announcement day. 10 couple finalists will be announced, and they will attending the workshop for 2 days to “fight” and the best of them will surely be the winner of Daun Muda Award, standing on Citra Pariwara stage, proudly holding high the trophy and fly to Pattaya.

Then, yesterday was the announcement day. No. Between the 10 couples of art director and copywriter name, there is no Ilma and Lala name on it. Dissapointed. What we saw on it was the name of some college friends of mine. Devastated. The award doesn’t go to me……

7 Comments:

Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

masih ada tahun depan lah.

12:10 PM, September 04, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Try again next year... Chad

10:02 PM, September 15, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Try again next year... Chad

10:03 PM, September 15, 2006  
Anonymous boogie_hoogie said...

Trus jadi yang menang anak mana il? taun depan hajar!

1:27 PM, September 21, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Ada anak Macs 909 deh kalo gak salah... Yah, kegagalan adalah kesuksesan yang tertunda (tsaahh..) wish me luck aje ya boo..

9:04 PM, September 26, 2006  
Anonymous chibi said...

gue juga ga pernah menang daun muda award. dan sekarang udah ketuaan buat dibilang daun muda ;)

ga papa lah. usaha boleh, menang sukur, ga menang yang penting ... hmm.. ya gitu deh :P

12:41 AM, September 28, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

sadarlah kegagalan itu peruntungan yang tidak dipersiapkan il..... berkecil hatilah karena kurang berusaha.. huahhahahaaaaaaaaaa...... :))

4:39 PM, October 05, 2006  

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

To all the guys I've loved before…

For those who had cared for me, for those whom I've shared my life with, for those who had helped me to grow:

Too bad, we weren’t meant to be…

Hey, YOU! The guy who’s reading this post right now! What made you think this post is for you?!

Nevertheless, nothing else but thanks…

:)

[Hey, how’s life?]

6 Comments:

Anonymous professional freelancer said...

irresolute

2:05 PM, August 22, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

curhat ni yehh.. hahahaha, knp lu?

3:11 PM, August 23, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

wehhhhhh.. longing for those comforting feeling of loving yah? heuhue..

3:36 PM, August 23, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

jakarta bandung 2 jam, cilandak rawmangun bisa 3 jam + macet, pilih mana sok?! bwhahahahaha

4:36 PM, August 30, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

hmmmm..... *mengingat - ingat *

4:36 PM, October 05, 2006  
Anonymous professional freelancer said...

hey cw plin plan.. sama yg mana lg skrang? yg sdg mengingat-ingat itu yg mana? hueehueheuseush,,

12:24 PM, October 12, 2006  

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Today, a year ago...

8 August 2005

06.00 AM.
This is my first day. I can’t describe how I really feel right now. Do I feel excited? Hum, well I guess I’m pretty much curious than being excited. So, how it is going to be? Remember Ilma, this is Honda, not an advertising agency. It’s in Tipar Cakung, not Sudirman. You are going to do automotive design stuffs, not print ad or TV commercial things. What do you expect?
Okay, let’s see. It might not be as bad as what you were thinking. No worries, The One will always lead the way.

Hhhmm.. I think I’m gonna wear this white formal cloth and match it with this black pants. Oh, this black leather bag would be good to be matched with this dark brown shoe. I couldn’t believe what I see right now on the mirror. What a dress- can’t believe that I’m about to be a real carrier woman. Gee—it’s not me, ha-ha. Enough, this is my first day. I ought to be well prepared.

07.00 AM.
What a ggreaatttt morning to start the day. Urrggghhh… I hate Jakarta already!!! May I see Jakarta without traffic jam just for once???!!! I couldn’t understand, how could Honda Southeast Asia be located in such ‘unbelievable’ place? Oh C’mon, do not grumble too much, Ilma. This is your first time, later you won’t be shocked anymore. Okay, that’s enough. Let start your first day with nice smile and good attitude :)

08.00 AM.
So, this is it. The one that really prestigious for Product Designer (and Graphic Designer also? Ah, I don’t care). Hhumm, not bad. I enter this huge full white colored building with five red big letters on it. God, I don’t even dare to compare the interior design with the advertising agency where I did my internship at. If I do, imagine how many insulting words will come from my mouth! *Oops*. I mean it’s soooo formal and boring. Oh I forgot.. This is Honda, not advertising agency. My apology for being so senile.

Okay, so today is about introduction matters like staff members, regulations and of course my job description. Maaaannn… it’s all about automotive design stuffs. Oh I couldn’t imagine how long I would stay for being occupied here— working as a designer for that automotive thing and working with those ugly monkeys (Dito, Fareza, Rantaw, the three brothers from Product Design who used to be friends of mine since I was in college and firstly working on the same day with me) are gonna seriously make my self crazy. Aaarrgghh…

17.00 PM.
What an awkward day. It passed really slow. I think I got to have a really really hard adaptation here. Ah, never mind. I wouldn’t be working here for more than 3 months—I even think that I’m going to resign on my first month. Well, I think maybe I’m going to work as an art director of an advertising agency, or a graphic designer of a branding consultant, or take a Master Degree abroad or maybe getting married and rise up my kids as a housewife. Otherwise, maybe I would stay here because it is much better than what I have expected.

Well, let’s see. Let time answers everything. Let Him show me the way.

8 August 2006

06.00 AM.
This is my first year. I can’t describe how I really feel right now. Do I feel excited? Hum, well I guess I’m pretty much surprised than being excited. So, how it was? Remember Ilma, this is Honda, not an advertising agency. It’s in Tipar Cakung, not Sudirman. You are doing automotive design stuffs, not print ad or TV commercial things. What did you expect?
Okay, you see. It is not as bad as what you were thinking. No worries, The One has leaded you the way.

Hhhmm.. I think I’m gonna wear my favorite white T-shirt and match it with this dark blue jean. Oh, this white red colored bag would be good to be matched with my favorite white Converse shoe. I couldn’t believe what I see right now on the mirror. What a dress- can’t believe that I’m a real carrier woman. Well—it’s me, ha-ha. Enough, this is not my first day. I habitually am so prepared.

07.00 AM.
What a ggreaatttt morning to start the day. Ohhhhh… I love Jakarta already!!! I’ve never seen Jakarta without traffic jam just for once, but that’s fine. But I still couldn’t understand, how could Honda Southeast Asia be located in such ‘unbelievable’ place? Oh C’mon, do not grumble too much, Ilma. This is not your first time, so you aren’t shocked anymore. Okay, that’s enough. Let start your first year with nice smile and good attitude :)

08.00 AM.
So, this is it. The one that really prestigious for Product Designer (and Graphic Designer also? Ah, I don’t care). Hhumm, not bad. I enter this huge full white colored building with five red big letters on it. God, I don’t even dare to compare the interior design with the advertising agency where I did my internship at. If I do, imagine how many insulting words will come from my mouth! *Oops*. I mean it’s soooo formal and boring. But I don’t forget.. This is Honda, not advertising agency. No apology for being so senile.

Okay, so today is about project matters like meetings, discussing and of course designing. Maaaannn… it’s all about automotive design stuffs. Oh I couldn’t imagine this long I could stay for being occupied here— working as a designer for that automotive thing and working with those ugly monkeys (Dito, Fareza, Rantaw, Godman, the four brothers from Product Design who used to be friends of mine since I was in college and firstly working on the same day with me except Godman, he started 3 months after) are getting more seriously make my self crazy. Aaarrgghh…

17.00 PM.
What an ordinary day. It passed really fast. I think I’ve had a really really hard adaptation here. Ah, never mind. I wouldn’t be working here for more than 3 years—I even previously used to think that I’m going to resign on my first month. Well, I thought maybe I’m going to work as an art director of an advertising agency, or a graphic designer of a branding consultant, or take a Master Degree abroad or maybe getting married and rise up my kids as a housewife. Otherwise, maybe I would stay here because it is much better than what I have expected.

Well, let’s see. Let time answers everything. Let Him show me the way.


*So far.. yeaahh... it's even much better than what I've been thinking!! ^_^*

7 Comments:

Blogger agn said...

at least our job let us wear jeans, t-shirt, and converse.. hue hue hue..

11:54 PM, August 08, 2006  
Anonymous professional freelancer said...

Setaun nih? ga brasa juga yah.. jalanin aja lagi, orang mah cari kerja susah hari gini lagian honda geto lochh . .

11:07 AM, August 09, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

Ilmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

Apakabaaaarrrrr?? kangen kangen kangen!!

Ada lowongan gak maaaa? kapan nih jalan bareng lagi dah lama gak seruseruan ma lo!!

10:00 AM, August 14, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lenon said...

Kantor lo jauh amet ma, tua di jalan gue kalo nganter jemput lu, huehuehueheksheu..

kapan?

11:14 AM, August 15, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Woiii... iya ni udah setaun :P
Emang jauh dari mana2 sih kantor gw, halah.. ngeluh2 jauh tp nanya2 lowongan, gimana sih pak? hehe.

1:38 PM, August 15, 2006  
Anonymous Kill_Lennon said...

pindah donk ke jaksel!!! hahaha! kapan woiii?

3:27 PM, August 23, 2006  
Anonymous Serge said...

Traffic is definitely an issue when it comes to work, no matter where in the world you might be.

3:33 PM, January 29, 2013  

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

If only…, I would…

These are a few of my imaginations [all came from a daydreaming on this damn boring working hours *yawning*]:

1. If only I was a color, I would be white.
I love white. It looks clean, elegant, simple, casual, and can be mixed and matched easily. My Psychology lecturer said that the reason why someone loved her/his favorite color meant what people thought about her/him. :)

2. If only I was a shoe, I would be a white colored Converse All Star.
Oh this is my favorite shoe everrr! I really love Converse especially the white All Star ones. God, I do admire Chuck Taylor a lot, bet he was really genius! It’s sooo comfortable, easily mix and match with cloths, casual and trendy, and it’s being the coolest shoe I’ve ever seen on earth [so exaggerating, ha-ha]. Well, I think this shoe reflects who I really am. Yeah, it’s so me. ; P

3. If only I were a pair of clothes, I would be a white fit slim T-shirt and a dark bell bottom blue jean.
As I told you before-I love white- so it happens on T-shirt too. I love wearing T-shirt, especially when it fits comfortable on me- and it used to be a fit slim one. Then, I think blue jean is the best thing to be paired with. I have a –not so slim- hip, so a dark bell bottom jean can help my appearance so I can look slimmer and taller.
Great! I really like this style, especially if I match it with my white Converse All Star. Awesome. Casual, simple, but sexy.

4. If only I was a music genre, I would be rock-alternative.
Well, I actually prefer jazz or soul as my music genre, but then I reconsider it and made up my mind. Rock-alternative bands like Weezer, Foo Fighters, Third Eye Blind, Silverchair and so on are the right bands that could exactly reflect my character and personality. Yet, sometimes I could be easy listening too. ;p

5. If only I was a motorbike, I would be Honda Zoomer.
Hohoho… No, it wasn’t because I’m working at Honda so I chose this Zoomer. C’mon, look at this bike; it’s soooo COOL, isn’t it? Well, despite of its low CC (50 cc only!!!—I don’t care), this bike’s character concept definitely reflects my personality, so I think it would really fit good on a boyish girl like me. Ha!


If only.. If only… If only…I would… I would… I would…

There are still hundreds of ‘If only and I would’ on my mind.. But my boss is currently standing and looking at me right on my back so.. BACK TO WORK!!!! *Hi Boss, nice tie-- you look great today.. Hehe.. Oh, I've just downloaded some pics for new ideas and inspirations for our next project, heheheheee…*

Pfhieww... Hey, what about you anyway???

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Blogger FIR said...

Nice thoughts ;-)

10:48 AM, July 26, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ilmaaaa!!!

Haha, iya, t-shirt putih, jeans cutbray, converse putih emang ELU BANGETTT! plus tas slempang lebi lengkap bo'.
Eh tapi buat musik lo bukannya seneng banget sama red hot chilli pepper ya bo'. incubus juga lo banget kali ma.. trus yang jezi jezi gitu apa kabarnya lo bokk, deep inside of u ya? Motor?? buset otak lo udah mulai ternodai honda ya ma hahaha.
Kalu gue sih yang jelas if i was an artist i would be angelina jolie, ya gak bookk?? :P

12:07 PM, July 26, 2006  
Blogger FIR said...

I've linked you up, so don't worry... I won't be a biscuit here... LOL. Keep blogging :-)

11:34 PM, July 26, 2006  
Blogger mitatea said...

huehehe... gw kebalikan elo kali ye... kalo gw sukanya item... pokoknya yang serba gelap-gelap..

btw, mp3 third eye blind ada tuh di temen gw, tapi gw belum sempet ngopi, ntar yak kalo ada kesempatan..

2:53 AM, July 28, 2006  
Anonymous boogie_hoogie said...

If I were you, I won't deny him... hehe.

peace ah.... :P

8:24 AM, August 05, 2006  
Blogger upssidetown said...

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4:51 AM, August 12, 2006  
Blogger Sarah said...

if i was a shoe it ould have to be pink with purple spots, just thought i'd let you know.

5:47 PM, January 30, 2007  

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

Please. It wasn’t me!!!

Just a few days ago on my lunch break time, just checked—wondering whether it’s being recorded or not---I leisurely opened that fastest search machine called google and typed my one and only blog name—ilmaffectional then hit the search button.

As fast as the local area connection speed, the result of my search appeared on my monitor and I can easily found some posts related to my blog. There were about 5 pages of result— be pleased if you guys want to try — mostly were about my own post or the comment I’ve dropped to others that had already linked to mine.
There was nothing special in particular actually, until I found something weird on the last page:



Nothing more I can do except being shocked—I was like, “ Hellooo… ilmaffectional? It was like one in a million name —going to give you thousands bucks if you could find a similar name all over the world!” So what this name stands for??? A porn site using my name??? Or my photograph??? Gimme a break!

WTF.

Surely I was in a great shock and curiosity upon this. I clicked the address site and found that it was a real porn site which is being blocked— have no idea with it--- but there was my blog name—once again, ilmaffectional—in the middle of that rude porn topics shouted on the site.

I was absolutely had no idea at all—I was just being so upset, and I once again checked if it was appeared on Yahoo! too.

And voila. Once again, ilmaffectional appears on some (yes, it was more than one) 'weird' sites.

FU*KKKKKKKK!! God, help me.

I remembered that I uploaded some of my pics for a post titled ilmamorphosis*)---- I do really afraid that there was an irresponsible person who has took advantage of it—used it, manipulated it with someone’s undressed body and propagated it on internet. DAMN.

I’ve been helped by a friend of mine for tracing this—he actually hasn’t found anything related to me on the porn sites. BUT, if you guys accidentally found porn sites using ilmaffectional or my face----- BELIEVE ME, IT WASN’T ME.

Thank you very much.

7 Comments:

Anonymous joesoef13 said...

as much as I really really really.. I mean really want to see them,.. but sometimes those kindda sites leave a sticky virus behind to the screen so .. let's not do it, .. may only God know the true

5:46 PM, July 06, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

congratulations on your new career--i had not idea you were so openminded. hahaha---man--this really sucks!

10:54 AM, July 08, 2006  
Blogger Luigi said...

Donlt worry - those kind of stuff may last long.. stay true on your profile and keep it reall. The crowd can decide and tell the difference.. :)

Nice to have found this blog and kind regards from West Africa :)

10:22 PM, July 08, 2006  
Blogger ra said...

waaaahhh bahaya bu..!!
but have no worries..just like what joesoef13 said, sometimes its just a virus or something.., hopefully!!
hummm.. bahaya..bahaya...humm

2:25 PM, July 10, 2006  
Anonymous professional freelancer said...

Tenang il, i'll let u know when i figured it out! Gua siap membantu (jadi ada alesan kan buat gua buat buka situs yang seru2 itu) :))

5:09 PM, July 14, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

udah lah ma, admit it..

6:25 PM, July 20, 2006  
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Monday, June 26, 2006

My "pregnancy"


Once again, another reason why I gotta think hundred million times before deciding to move out from this f***ing HONDA...

I am "falling in love".

And I am happily "pregnant".

DAMN.


NO. What I meant was...

Alhamdulillaahi rabbil 'alamiiiiinnnn!!!! ^_^

7 Comments:

Blogger Neng Asti said...

Naek gaji ya Ma? Huehue..

5:12 PM, June 26, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

this f***ing HONDA...
-- statement untuk co yang suka kurang ajar...

I am "falling in love".

--jatuh cinta, statement berlebihan untuk keadaan senang, which is relative untuk sebagian orang...


And I am happily "pregnant"
--- term desainer kalo barang yang dia design mau di produksi dalam waktu dekat ini, karena sudah positif projeksinya.

Alhamdulillaahi rabbil 'alamiiiiinnnn!!!! ^_^
--- Segala puji bagi Allah, Yang Maha Pemberi lagi Penyayang... biasanya term digunakan setelah mendapat rejeki banyak dan berlimpah, yang sudah dipotong zakat amal...

Makan - makan nyetttt !!

6:16 PM, June 26, 2006  
Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

Seems we have a big party, then... :P

11:01 AM, June 29, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

naek gaji!!!!!!!

10:05 PM, June 29, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

okay--what does that mean? please translate for the English speaking world. If you can't, I'll come up with my own idea--from somewhere deep in my glorious imagination. ha

7:39 AM, June 30, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Okay then, so they were trying to interpret this post with their own perception. Most of them have thought that my company have uprisen my salary.

Hmm, joesoef13 seemed so confident with his analysis.. nice try dude, but it wasn't that right, xp
(Oh it's too long to explain, bet you should learn Bahasa, Cherokee!) :))

Well, since everything is free in this blog-- feel free for guessing what this post is all about guys, haha!

2:29 PM, June 30, 2006  
Blogger ra said...

aku tawuu!!
ehehehe..pasti ..hamil beneran yaq...xixixixi
sama sapa ma? sapa? sapa?

ga ding ni satu lagi tebakan:
ng..salah satu hal yang bikin lo makin terikat dan sayang untuk melepas ikatan kerja dg mas honda. and its not love but new responsibilities..

umm this guess could be right, i think..^_^

2:29 PM, July 10, 2006  

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Monday, June 12, 2006

Wedding Party


Lately, weekend means wedding invitation for me. And lately, wedding has been the most spoken word on my daily conversation around-—or I may say that I guess it become the hottest issue for twenty something people regarding to that bla bla blahs quarter life crisis theory—- and even as the most annoying common irritating question theme by those who had been into marriage a.k.a parents and even coupled neighbors *d*mn you, yes I’m single-- so what?!?!*
Urgh, I just don’t get why this “So darling, when will you get married?” was become the most favorite line for mocking us—as if they pretend not to know that it being the most irritating question for us—single twenty something person who’s still learn to see the world! Oh yes, that question was such a biggest fear for us to be asked! WTF!
One thing I’ve learned from my pal was; if you are being asked with that question, just simply answer… MAY. MAY be soon, MAY be later. Hahaha!

Speaking about the wedding, I met some of my high school mates last Wednesday. With a cup of coffee and cigars in an uproar France atmosphere wanna be café afterhours, a friend of mine who’s been engaged since she was in college told us about her wedding plan. Asking her when she would get married, she answered, “Well, I won’t tell you when I’m married. You’ll know soon after I get married. I mean— I wouldn’t have a wedding party. I just want to have a simple marriage ceremony; no wedding party in particular. I would only invite my closest colleagues and wouldn’t tell anybody—guess that wedding party is not that important for me—“
Some of my other friends have their own unique wedding party dream. Wedding party in a lovely strawberry garden, in a football field, in Mecca, or even bungee jumping wedding *maann, it’s too much, hahaha!*.

Well, about me, humm… Wedding spot? Oh, it could be arranged later. Wedding day? Oh, okay… it will be confirmed later, just hold on. Wedding dress? Oh, my talented fashion designer friend would design it especially for me. Wedding invitation card… Oh, well… helloo… I’m a graphic designer—sure I’ll do design it by myself. Wedding decoration… Oh dear you guys from interior design, product design and fine art… I believe in your perfect talent!(yuhuuuu…hahaha). Wedding singer? Oh, yes… my high school pal celebrity Mario Kahitna would handle it (for your information, I’ve asked him already! Hahahaha…). Huummm, what else? Did I forget something? I beg your pardon? What?? Oops… I missed… the BRIDEGROOM!!!!! I haven’t prepared my bridegroom yet!

Hahaha.

So... what about you?

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Blogger Nadine-Zaki said...

i'm not trying to mock you, but I'll be a wife next two weeks :). sad to hear that you'll miss my ceremony :(

12:51 PM, June 12, 2006  
Anonymous joesoef13 said...

emang selalu menjadi topik setiap hari kehidupan orang orang - 'umur tanggung-kerjaan tanggung-mau mandiri-tapi dikejar kejar suruh kawin sama orantuanya' ... apa sudah gak masuk ke wilayah itu lagi ?

12:55 PM, June 12, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

hmmmm, this has been on my mind a lot lately. i've been close to being married--and felt i met someone whom would have made a great person to spend my life with-but for some unknown reason, things just get in the way. so-i say wait until you just know this person is right for you. hopefully they will be your best friend-and more. you'll find him-and if you don't--he'll find you...right? so-just go on living, being yourself, growing as a person, and when the time is right, life will fall into place---it always does.

hope you are doing well---i would invite you over for a movie-but the traffic is terrible...maybe tomorrow. hahaha

2:39 PM, June 13, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hahaha, iya, emang lagi trendnya il nikah muda. Jaman skarang orang umur 22 udah kebelet kawin aje.. eh temen kita ada lagi tuh yg mo kawinan juli diundang ga lu?

8:24 AM, June 22, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Whoaa, ini syapa yaw, kok anonymous lagi siii.. sapa lagi nih juli ini?

12:32 PM, June 28, 2006  
Blogger ra said...

mawuu doong...skarang kan kita sama2 umur duatiga yah ma, padahal gw mah tdnya mo nikah umur 19 hahaha..eh trus diubah lagi rencananya..jadi duatiga, yang berarti skarang2 inih...hahaha..tapinya...sama aja kaya kamuh..belum nemu sang pengantin prianyaa..wuehehe..yaah.. segera lah ya..ayo ma, semangat!
tapi tau gak? sebenernya ap lo yakin lo dah mau? menjalani bahtera (cie bahtera!) demikian dengan tanggung jawab ketika anak hadir dan sebagai wanita yang telah bersuami? heu heu? berat booo! i ve never tried that, but i ve seen so much examples, im sure u ve seen that too, its so damn hard! hehehe this is just my opinion, maybe im just one litle spoiled gurl with many dreams waiting to be accomplished..

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Monday, May 29, 2006

Nothing but a particle of dust..

Saturday, May 26, 2006; 10 minutes to the day after...

My fingers moving so fast and beating these alphabetical pads on a thin board; directed by my clueless direction from my brain.

My eyes keenly see every single thing emerged by those fingers’ beat on the clear bright flat screen that conceitedly stands in this 3x4 unpretentious space.

My ears conscientiously listen to the whisper of the solitude night murmuring its loneliness voice despite the tumultuous horn of the traffic, the flattery jolly sound of the radio, or the starvation agony of those annoying dogs hoping for their master’s compassion.

And my mouth is freezing; my word couldn’t be spoken with my unthinkable thought inside.

I a m S h a m e f u l l y M e a n i n g l e s s .

I’m nothing but an indistinct mini particle dust between this huge enormous exalted will of Allah. Everything in this motherland—and all in this world happen by The Almighty’s will.Everything comes from Him, and it turns back to Him after all. We are just a human with limited capability.

Earthquake? Death? Disaster? Pain? Everything is just a piece of cake for Him to create.

A l l a h u A k b a r .

(Deepest condolence to all Yogyakarta earthquake victims..in truth, Allah will always be by your side)

6 Comments:

Blogger cherokee said...

God is always reshaping our world, our paths, our minds, & we are better off when we trust in Him. I am saddened to see the devastation in your homeland. One hurt person-one soul taken-reverberates through the heart of humanity.

9:42 AM, May 30, 2006  
Blogger agn said...

well, belakangan gw juga makin memikirkan hal tersebut. Apalagi setelah nenek gw meninggal dan gw kebetulan tidur di tempat tidur tempat dia disolatkan (?). Well, lately i always thinkin about what life is all about. I have billion of ambitions and then I always thought that this is a never ending shitz. i was confining myself with the whole ideas of "What Next" without ever have the thought of saying "Okay, I think this is it baby..".
But, now yessssssssssss, i really need to restrict some part of my ambition and share some quality time with ma family, frieends, and dearly Ol' God...

(asa teu nyambung, but whateva.. hei lets have a cup of cup of tea someday...hehehehhehe)

2:45 PM, June 02, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

cherokee> yes Chad, well.. it's not only for human, the kittens you've found have their own life paths too, don't they?

agn> Hhmmm, mumpung lo masih blom pergi ya gun? Tinggal menghitung hari ya lo disini... sedih juga :(
Indonesia berapa juta kilo sih dari sana? Gw ikut aja gimana? Tar minum teh-nya disana aja, kan cuco' berat tuh dingin2 minum teh, ;)

5:07 PM, June 02, 2006  
Anonymous professional jobseeker said...

Ilma dear,

Iya, kita cuman bisa pasrah..
Seperti gua, pasrah blom dapet kerja. bagaimana anak istri gua entar ya.. Jodoh gua siapa ya ma? hehe

8:37 AM, June 06, 2006  
Blogger rangga said...

kita seharusnya gak cuman inget Dia kalo ada penderitaan...

mungkin itulah yang Dia ingin sampaikan.

Tapi hidup jalan terus... kita mesti tetep melangkah ke depan, meskipun sakit.

11:41 PM, June 06, 2006  
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Monday, May 08, 2006

Counting down...until the upcoming day.

Tic.. toc.. tic.. toc

I’m counting down, goes by every seconds, minutes and hours... Flows like a water and even blows like a wind on every seasons. And the clock is still tictoc–ing; mocking me with the tic toc sound that makes me sick. Sick. Sick. Full of pain. But I don’t care. Still, I’m counting down.

I’m counting down, as if I count every beat of my heart, every pulse of my artery, every breath I take, every word I say, every step I walk, every move I make, every wink I blink.

I’m counting down, as if I knew my dead end day. I’m counting down, as if I knew my starting count to the ending number. I’m counting down, and still counting down… again, over and over again, with patience… and hope.

I’m counting down; yet still don’t know where I stand now. Where am I? On number 1839? 98? 35? Or even 5? I don’t even know from what number do I have to count, is it 1000? 99999? Or maybe 10. Still, the ending will always be zero.

I’m counting down, without stopwatch. I’m counting down, without knowing what would I be. Just counting down, once again, with patience… and hope.

Tic.. toc.. tic.. toc

Now, precisely now-- in the month of 5, million seconds away. As you could clearly see, I’m still counting down. The time will come immediately, that’s what he said. Soon. Tomorrow, or maybe today. 10 hours left, maybe? We both don’t know. But still-- I’m still counting down..

(For my soulmate somewhere out there.. I’m here, and still counting down.. with patience… and hope..)

8 Comments:

Blogger Neng Asti said...

Maaa.. mau doa ketemu jodoh ga? I'm waiting for your reply.. Kalo mau tar gue post disini doanya..

5:38 PM, May 08, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Boleh boleh.. tp gw udah punya juga sih, dikasih emak gw, hahahahaaa... mau tukeran??

*beginilah percakapan dua orang wanita yang sudah bosan dan lelah mengarungi perahu cinta yang selalu berakhir dengan tenggelam, wakakakakakkkkk...*

5:56 PM, May 08, 2006  
Blogger nitya said...

r u gonna get marry??????

9:21 PM, May 08, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Yang dibaca 75x abis tahajjud bukan Ma?

*ma gue ga ikut-ikutan soal "dua orang wanita yang sudah bosan dan lelah mengarungi perahu cinta yang selalu berakhir dengan tenggelam" lho.. jangan digeneralisir gitu dong.. haha..*

9:04 PM, May 10, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Buset!! dibaca 75x setelah tahajud?!! ck ck ck... gila hebat lo ti.. takjub gw.. semoga segera dikabulkan! ;p

*udalhaaaa... kan biar bisa sekalian gw promosiin disini ti, hahaha*

Hai nitya.. salam kenal yaaa.. the answer of your question is.. sooner or later lah, hehe.. ;p

10:12 PM, May 10, 2006  
Blogger cherokee said...

I'm so sorry I didn't respond sooner. I had no idea you were counting down for me to show up in your life-to be your soul mate. Well, here I am...come on over. hahahaha I know what you mean--but it will happen, he will come along-and when he does-and fills that void, you won't know a world without him-or remember one.

8:11 AM, May 14, 2006  
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4:25 PM, May 17, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Gue juga baru nyobain sekali *no wonder sampai sekarang belum ketemu juga*.. Begitu selesai langsung pusing.. Perjuangan menjemput jodoh, oh oh oh..

4:25 PM, May 17, 2006  

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