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Monday, May 29, 2006

Nothing but a particle of dust..

Saturday, May 26, 2006; 10 minutes to the day after...

My fingers moving so fast and beating these alphabetical pads on a thin board; directed by my clueless direction from my brain.

My eyes keenly see every single thing emerged by those fingers’ beat on the clear bright flat screen that conceitedly stands in this 3x4 unpretentious space.

My ears conscientiously listen to the whisper of the solitude night murmuring its loneliness voice despite the tumultuous horn of the traffic, the flattery jolly sound of the radio, or the starvation agony of those annoying dogs hoping for their master’s compassion.

And my mouth is freezing; my word couldn’t be spoken with my unthinkable thought inside.

I a m S h a m e f u l l y M e a n i n g l e s s .

I’m nothing but an indistinct mini particle dust between this huge enormous exalted will of Allah. Everything in this motherland—and all in this world happen by The Almighty’s will.Everything comes from Him, and it turns back to Him after all. We are just a human with limited capability.

Earthquake? Death? Disaster? Pain? Everything is just a piece of cake for Him to create.

A l l a h u A k b a r .

(Deepest condolence to all Yogyakarta earthquake victims..in truth, Allah will always be by your side)

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Blogger Chad McMillan said...

God is always reshaping our world, our paths, our minds, & we are better off when we trust in Him. I am saddened to see the devastation in your homeland. One hurt person-one soul taken-reverberates through the heart of humanity.

9:42 AM, May 30, 2006  
Blogger anggunpribadi said...

well, belakangan gw juga makin memikirkan hal tersebut. Apalagi setelah nenek gw meninggal dan gw kebetulan tidur di tempat tidur tempat dia disolatkan (?). Well, lately i always thinkin about what life is all about. I have billion of ambitions and then I always thought that this is a never ending shitz. i was confining myself with the whole ideas of "What Next" without ever have the thought of saying "Okay, I think this is it baby..".
But, now yessssssssssss, i really need to restrict some part of my ambition and share some quality time with ma family, frieends, and dearly Ol' God...

(asa teu nyambung, but whateva.. hei lets have a cup of cup of tea someday...hehehehhehe)

2:45 PM, June 02, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

cherokee> yes Chad, well.. it's not only for human, the kittens you've found have their own life paths too, don't they?

agn> Hhmmm, mumpung lo masih blom pergi ya gun? Tinggal menghitung hari ya lo disini... sedih juga :(
Indonesia berapa juta kilo sih dari sana? Gw ikut aja gimana? Tar minum teh-nya disana aja, kan cuco' berat tuh dingin2 minum teh, ;)

5:07 PM, June 02, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ilma dear,

Iya, kita cuman bisa pasrah..
Seperti gua, pasrah blom dapet kerja. bagaimana anak istri gua entar ya.. Jodoh gua siapa ya ma? hehe

8:37 AM, June 06, 2006  
Blogger rangga said...

kita seharusnya gak cuman inget Dia kalo ada penderitaan...

mungkin itulah yang Dia ingin sampaikan.

Tapi hidup jalan terus... kita mesti tetep melangkah ke depan, meskipun sakit.

11:41 PM, June 06, 2006  

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Monday, May 08, 2006

Counting down...until the upcoming day.

Tic.. toc.. tic.. toc

I’m counting down, goes by every seconds, minutes and hours... Flows like a water and even blows like a wind on every seasons. And the clock is still tictoc–ing; mocking me with the tic toc sound that makes me sick. Sick. Sick. Full of pain. But I don’t care. Still, I’m counting down.

I’m counting down, as if I count every beat of my heart, every pulse of my artery, every breath I take, every word I say, every step I walk, every move I make, every wink I blink.

I’m counting down, as if I knew my dead end day. I’m counting down, as if I knew my starting count to the ending number. I’m counting down, and still counting down… again, over and over again, with patience… and hope.

I’m counting down; yet still don’t know where I stand now. Where am I? On number 1839? 98? 35? Or even 5? I don’t even know from what number do I have to count, is it 1000? 99999? Or maybe 10. Still, the ending will always be zero.

I’m counting down, without stopwatch. I’m counting down, without knowing what would I be. Just counting down, once again, with patience… and hope.

Tic.. toc.. tic.. toc

Now, precisely now-- in the month of 5, million seconds away. As you could clearly see, I’m still counting down. The time will come immediately, that’s what he said. Soon. Tomorrow, or maybe today. 10 hours left, maybe? We both don’t know. But still-- I’m still counting down..

(For my soulmate somewhere out there.. I’m here, and still counting down.. with patience… and hope..)

8 Comments:

Blogger Neng Asti said...

Maaa.. mau doa ketemu jodoh ga? I'm waiting for your reply.. Kalo mau tar gue post disini doanya..

5:38 PM, May 08, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Boleh boleh.. tp gw udah punya juga sih, dikasih emak gw, hahahahaaa... mau tukeran??

*beginilah percakapan dua orang wanita yang sudah bosan dan lelah mengarungi perahu cinta yang selalu berakhir dengan tenggelam, wakakakakakkkkk...*

5:56 PM, May 08, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

r u gonna get marry??????

9:21 PM, May 08, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Yang dibaca 75x abis tahajjud bukan Ma?

*ma gue ga ikut-ikutan soal "dua orang wanita yang sudah bosan dan lelah mengarungi perahu cinta yang selalu berakhir dengan tenggelam" lho.. jangan digeneralisir gitu dong.. haha..*

9:04 PM, May 10, 2006  
Blogger ilmaffectional said...

Buset!! dibaca 75x setelah tahajud?!! ck ck ck... gila hebat lo ti.. takjub gw.. semoga segera dikabulkan! ;p

*udalhaaaa... kan biar bisa sekalian gw promosiin disini ti, hahaha*

Hai nitya.. salam kenal yaaa.. the answer of your question is.. sooner or later lah, hehe.. ;p

10:12 PM, May 10, 2006  
Blogger Chad McMillan said...

I'm so sorry I didn't respond sooner. I had no idea you were counting down for me to show up in your life-to be your soul mate. Well, here I am...come on over. hahahaha I know what you mean--but it will happen, he will come along-and when he does-and fills that void, you won't know a world without him-or remember one.

8:11 AM, May 14, 2006  
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4:25 PM, May 17, 2006  
Blogger Neng Asti said...

Gue juga baru nyobain sekali *no wonder sampai sekarang belum ketemu juga*.. Begitu selesai langsung pusing.. Perjuangan menjemput jodoh, oh oh oh..

4:25 PM, May 17, 2006  

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