Self Dialogue

Dear ME,

Do you remember, Mother used to say that 24 years ago, she was struggling against death and the pain for giving you a chance to see the world? Yes, I remember. She said that it was the greatest experience she has ever had, having me as her first child.

Do you remember, your parents used to say that you were the most beloved person in family? Yes, they told me about it million times. It’s all because I’m the eldest great-great-grandchild, the eldest great-grandchild, the eldest grandchild, and the eldest children on my family.

Do you remember, when you were 13 you started to fall in love- you had some puppy love but you were so scared because your father would be really angry if you have a boyfriend at that time? Yes, oh... those sweet little boys. They were just only could call me by phone pretending to ask the homework.

Do you remember, at 15 you were really-really fall in love for the first time and got your heartbroken for the first time either? Yes, we had spent our time together for a while but we were too naive to understand what a relationship is all about.

Do you remember, your parents were so angry with you because you got lots of bad marks on your high school? Yes, my high school moment was so gorgeous. But I was too busy with my teenage world so I had missed the lessons a lot.

Do you remember, your parents were so happy for you when you were accepted at ITB and so proud of you when you were graduated with a good predicate? Yes, the tears of happiness fell down and prayers recited from their heart, wishing me a bright future.

Do you remember, last year you were full of confusions about your love, life and carrier; and your parents patiently gave you lots of advice and wisdoms? Yes, and now I’m not in doubt anymore. Their support is always reminds me to be thankful for all the blessing gift of Allah and to be optimist to see the future.

And here you are, dear me. 24 years is like a long road you had been passed through. Yes I am, dear me. And what I have to do is to thank Allah for everything. My apology for sighing and complaining too much, yes I do believe that The Almighty knows what the best for me is. And He has given me all the best for me on the best way and the best moment too.

Happy 24 years, dear me. Now let’s look forward and pass through the rest of your road until The One calls you to heaven. Thank you, dear me. May Allah’s bless be with me always…